SPECIAL UPDATE

LOL


I was reading eunice's blog and I realized that if i don't blog properly about the events of the party, it's gonna be a big waste. So I MUST! Hahas. Super funny can.

Kk so the preparations for the party actually started early last week - after the game of bball at teru's place last Thurs, me, tong and val went back to my house and just started discussing. Actually coz me and val had the idea/desire to plan a xmas party for really long now. Then we included tong for budget's sake. So we came up wit lots of ideas on venue, theme etc. Won't reveal all our plans for now but the brainstorming process seemed to only include my brain. Lols. So anw, we had an initial guest list of 65 ppl - then we realized it was really too much, so we threw out the not-so-important ppl and narrowed it down to abt 7-8 people each, leaving about 20+ almost 30 people invited.

So we sent out the invitations etc and here comes the infuriating part - ppl who dun wanna reply fast, ppl who hem and haw. I mean, if you fucking don't wanna come, just say no. I'll beg etc for awhile but i won't keep it up. I mean, one less person means less to provide for means easier on my pocket right? Those "try" ones I had to keep putting an asterisk beside the name etc. Irritating only.

Oh on that day we also decided on the games etc And the food. Hahas. So this week Tuesday, val and I went to the sheng siong near my house to grab all the food and we bought a heck of a lot of stuff! But i love grocery shopping nia! Then etc then went home and realized my mom wasn't gonna allow us to cook at home, then really pissed and all, then i said OK LOR since u dun want us to cook YOU cook for us before you leave for dinner lor. My father was uber-supportive of course. He rocks during times like these. He sponsored a truckload of food though, assuming, of course, that everyone eats as much as he does. LOL. Kidding kidding.

Today(ytd) itself, the girls were supposed to be at my house around 11am, then change to 3pm.. After clubbing last night, I slept at 5am, woke up at various intervals and finally dragged myself outta bed at 12nn. My mom called and asked if we had minced meat for the pasta sauce and I said no so I walked out to the NTUC at yewtee mrt to buy tt and mixed veg and balloons and the prize for the games and nachos etc. Yea. Then walked home.. Then prepared the scavenger's hunt stuff and blew balloons.. Then val arrived and we prepared the rest of the balloons, the gift exchange, the other stuff la. Then once everything was more or less settled, i went to bathe and the rest slacked ard. Poor silas hadn't slept for 50+ hours! And still helped us a lot some more!! Thanks mann. Oh and during the aftnn some ppl called to gimme last min notices - Rahrah cldn't make it (drama rehearsal at church), desheng didn't even know it was today(thanks arh teru), sher and friend will be late, siying wld be early tho. Haha.


Then went to set up tables etc, then got ready for the stuff le. My mom started cooking. 6:08pm, our first guests (excluding Silas) arrived - Eu and Gas!! Yayyy Haha. Got them their drinks (which was pretty exciting actually) and chatted for awhile. Then ben, ashton and eve called to say they were at the mrt station already so val and I went to pick them up (val drove). On our way out, Teru made his way in, so we said hi and all first then we went to pick the other 3 up. Then when we arrived back at the house, Ching (val's friend) was there already! So after serving them drinks then realized tt i hadn't served the tidbits! Grr. And there were shitloads of pizza so started giving it out. Hahas

Then other ppl started arriving! And we were behind schedule! We were supposed to start dinner at 7pm la. Then all the ppl refused to eat the pizza can. Siying arrived, Qisheng arrived, mich and JA arrived etc! Hahas. Mingled around, talked talked etc.. Then finally got the guests on their feet and moving to their seats.. Haha. In classic party style we assigned seats for them - broke up the couples and basically sat ppl who didn't know each other at the same table. Thought it might be bad but it ended up really good! Everyone mingled very well =) I'm glad i have fucking sociable friends =)) So we served dinner etc, then desheng called to say he was at mrt, so we went to pick him up.. And thanks to teru's big announcement, the whole fucking party was dying to see him. Thanks arh. Thanks. So we went to pick him up and on the way suyee called and she JUST WOKE UP! Lol. So too late for her to join us le (she lives in bishan!) sigh. So sad lol. Nx time k babe! =) Anw, then when we returned, sher and guo xing were there already! Hehe. Haven't seen sher in ages =) Love ya babe!!

So anyways, dinner draaaaaaaggggggeeeedddd on for super super long. WHY? Coz silly ppl, i mean, silly stupid fucking kaypoh busybodies arh! Hahas. Interrogate interrogate. I wonder why he still stayed on can. If I were him I run away already. Then - interrogate still not enough, still TALK UNTIL SO LOUD!! AUNTIES, I CAN HEAR YOU THROUGH THE KITCHEN WINDOW!! My goodness. So fucking embarassing. I have embarassing friends. Sociable yes, but embarassing.

Thank God for small eyes and SINGLE eyelids! And a FAT stomach! (fuck off and go to hell if you don't like that)


Now I know why halfway through teru came in and asked "your eyes can open bigger?" Hahas. Coz tong helped me stick my falsies then she very smartly stuck them on my lower lids so had to move to upper lids then in the end the eyes BOTH lids also kenna glue. Then the whole night my eyes cldn't open properly lol. Anw, yah then he also asked "you single eyelid or double eyelid". PROUDLY, I say, PROUDLY. I have SINGLE eyelid. YAYYYY~ rah. Anw, yea.. Hung in the kitchen wit silas preparing dessert while the idiot hussies interrogated away. My goodness. Super embarassing. I went out to join evy, ashton, arh ben, qisheng and others at the outside table. Tell you, the rest just totally BONDED at the middle table la. BONDED i tell ya. Irritating shits.

Oh wait! I forgot to mention sth!! Oh yea. At this point must mention that DEAR DARLING ARH BEN gave me the most gorgeous birthday gift ever!!! Wheee~~~ You rock arh ben! Love ya loads! It's this uber gorgeous chio lovely awesome fantastically beautiful necklace! And it's the only one of its design in Singapore!! Wo0t. Thanks so much darling!!! I really really love it =) It's gorgeous! Sorry for making u spend so much on me la! Hahas


Hahas. Ok back to event-blog. So anyways, after tt we realized we were running outta time so we hurriedly started the games. Funnily enough, and to my huge surprise, everyone was super co-operative! Hahas. I think it's coz they already broke a fucklot of ice yah. *mumbles about idiots and bigmouths again* Anyways, so we started the first game, which was Scavenger's Hunt!! Wo0ts. I shda printed the stuff out but coz of miscommunication wit val.. Hahas. Anw, these were the items they had to get:

1 condom
1 pocket mirror
1 brown leather man's wallet
1 lady's watch
1 name-list of the other 2 teams
1 thank-you-letter-to-the-hosts*
1 kiss-under-the-mistletoe (take photo as proof)
1 lame joke*
1 brother
1 host!

Hahas. Items with asterisks were judged based on loveliness/lameness. I DON'T EVEN WANT TO START TALKING ABOUT THE LAME JOKES. Just know that i have very very lame friends. And desheng is VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY EXTREMELY VERY VERY EXTREMELY LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG-WINDED!!!!!!

Wah. I really almost died listening to his stupid lame joke. And it was really quite lame nia. But i really almost died. Hahahahaha. Kays so anw, the grps were named Green Yellow and Gray, based on the colors of their place cards. The first game - Gray and Green tied, coz they were able to come up with most of the items, and Green had the best lame joke.

- Metal stick and Wooden stick hit the head, which one more pain?
- A: the head.

That was the winning entry. The second lamest, told by Miss SherryTan(of the Gray group)!! Lol

- What is the color of weapons in China?
- A: Blue (because dao1 qiang1 bu2 ru4 (buru buru = blue))

Actually I thought this grp one was better. But honestly la. The yellow grp, as represented by desheng, really almost killed everyone off. Hahahahas. So anyways, it was really fun and got everyone feeling slightly happier. Hahahas. After tt game, we moved on to Zong Ji Mi Ma with a twist! Each group had to send a representative to guess the number and the group of the person who kenna-ed the number had to all do the forfeit! Hahas.

Gray grp was represented by Gas, Green by Silas and Yellow by Desheng. (Suddenly he's mr popular -__-"") Hahahas Then GAS WAS SUPER SUAY!!!!! Wahahahahahah 3 times in a row kenna the number! (We held the number up facing the other members but the 3 ppl sat somewhere else where everyone looked at them) Wahahaha Super funny. Poor gray grp (Mich, Teru, Gas and Sher) had to do forfeits 3 times!! Wahahaha. First time was they had to beg the person on their right to SPANK them! Wahahahaha super er xin - GAS EVEN STUCK HIS ASS OUT AND ASKED SHER TO SPANK! Wahahahahahahas. Eunice was laughing her ass off sia! Hahahahas. Then the girls just teh-ed their way through like "uhhh~~ spank meee~~" WAHAHAHAHAHA. OMFG.

Then their second forfeit was that they had to call up McDelivery and ask(altogether as a group) to make a reservation for a candle-lit dinner for TWO! Wahahaha. This was damn funny la, coz the group couldn't say in unison what they wanted to say! Wahahahah. So they kept repeating themselves to the poor waiter! Wahahahs. Then in the end when they finally said, in unison, "CAN WE MAKE A RESERVATION FOR A CANDLE-LIT DINNER FOR TWO?" we all held our breaths, and the guy on the other end went - "HUH!?"

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAH We just freaking all broke out laughing la!! WAHAHAHAHAH Super funny sia! I hereby apologize to the poor McDonald's staff who had to answer our call tt day. LMAO. Super funny! Wahahaha. KK then their third forfeit was that they had to slow-dance to one cheesy song, so we just paired them up - mich and gas, sher and teru.. They danced to "A Whole New World"! Lol. Super funny.

Then the next group to kenna was Silas's grp - GREEN!! HAhahas. Silas, Arh Ben, Siying, Qisheng and Evy kenna and had to SING AND DANCE THE "I'M-A-LITTLE-TEAPOT" SONG LA!!! Wahahaha super funny! So we made Siying lead them and they had to do it twice because i didn't hear them SING! Lol. And they gamely did so. I'm so proud of you guys =))

Then it was late le 1030+? And some ppl had to leave, so we had the gift exchange first and it was cool =) Then we continued with our last game - TRIVIA!! Hahas. Basically we asked them questions about ourselves (the 3 hosts) and the team that answers it on first attempt wins 2 points, the team that answers it on rebound wins one point. Oh and Yellow team won the ZongJiMiMa round coz well, they didn't kenna anything. Lol. So anw, for the trivia, YELLOW TEAM WON due to the combined efforts of Ching (answering Val's qns) and Eunice (answering qns abt me and tong!) LOL

So anw, overall champion were the underdogs - YELLOW TEAM! Haha. They got the prize. You all ownself go and ask them what it was. Yea then basically that ended the party! Hahas. Ended on a good note =)) I'm happy!!


So there you go -- oh and NOTE: I am never gonna host a party ever again!! Super difficult nia. Hahas
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About Thursday! Forgot to mention that we entered through VIP again - free entry somemore! Wahahahas. Like, they might as well make me VIP le, i'm getting too familiar wit MOS's vip tent. I'm getting spoilt! Nx time go MOS I sure don't want to queue le lol. Not good. Hahas.

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About Tao2 Hua1 Yun4 - grr. not good. Too many choices is BAD BAD BAD.

quite a success! =)

i guess in 3 words, the party was quite a success! =)

hee. what with all the last min flurry - ppl pulling out, coming late etc, i really thought it was gonna be a bad day, bad party

in the end, it was fine =)) hee. thanks to everyone who turned up. Y'all deserve a shoutout! Here goes! (in order of arrival)

Silas (our hired help for the day. came wit tong(our co-host ya) first)
Eunice and Gas
Teru
Ching
Ashton
Eve
Arh Ben
Siying
Mich and JA
Qisheng
Sherry
Guo Xing
Desheng


Lousier turnout than expected lol but it was a roaring party though. The silly people got high over at the main dining table - irritating the hell out of me!! And making me wanna take the chopper and chop off some heads!! Grr

Once the games started it was all very fun =) I'm glad you guys were so enthu man, we cldn't have had so much fun if u all weren't so co-operative.

Thanks to all of you for coming =) You guys made the effort worth it! Hee.

I, for one, was so stressed I couldn't eat the whole day la. Thanks a lot to Tong's Silas for all the help - it was as if he was a host too! hahas.

So even though there was a bottle of red wine left at the end and fucking truckloads of food left, I'd say it was rather a success =)

I'm glad you guys had fun (those who feedback-ed to me) hee. MERRY XMAS ONE AND ALL =)) Whee~~
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Sidenote: I've been having tao2 hua1 yun4 lately. Fucking irritating

grrrr

sigh

bad day alert


my camera's missing. sshh don't tell anyone.
scandalous pics galore - i'm so dead.


clubbing ytd - SIM-UOL bash! Kinda boring actually, lol. William came down coz i badgered him into coming.. Too bad shui cldn't make it in the end =( But it was fun to hang out wit my esprimere people! =)) Suyee looked gorgeous though she kept complaining abt her freaking gorgeous hair la. You looked awesome babe!! =) Then HOT/SWEET/SEXY and super lovely GanBEE!! Haha. So jealous of her la. So damn chio. Peiwen - rock chick nia! Gorgeous la. Hahas. Teru - tiko peh. LOL!! We also saw Joseph! and Louis! and Gary! And reena(esprimere one)! And ganbee's friend mingshu!(famous shoe) And loadsa others la! =)

Drinks were ok ok. I got a rum wit orange - the bartender told me it's the first time in all his bartending days mixing that. COOL! =) And it was delicious! Hahas.

Hmms.. May or may not be going again next week. I see how k shui! I pissed my mom off quite bad today/ytd by coming home not at the time she wanted ya. I reached home at 3 leh! Not bad le la.


I hate last-min pull outs


The party is still going on. Despite extreme shortage of funds on the side of the organisers and a lot of people wavering on whether or not to come, the party's going on and my parents are helping out. Really love them sometimes. And then really kinda hate them sometimes. But at the mo it's all love! =)

Hope all goes well. Sigh. *prays hard*

settled

i'm glad it's settled

i'll stick to my conclusion

but i love you still, ok?


don't be sorry. nobody's at fault.


i'm glad i'm not so angry anymore. but i really hope that it doesn't become "i-don't-try-you-don't-try-we-will-just-dwindle-away" kind of thing. Regardless, I'm still sticking to my conclusion. And i shan't think too much (w.r.t you) anymore.


Goodbye, and Hello, my friend.

busy busy busy!

hey!

sorry for the late blogging - been so uber busy lately.


planning the party is at the foremost of my thoughts right now! haha. i can't think beyond Friday at the moment. In fact, I always tend to skip tomorrow(Thursday) in my plans also. Keep forgetting that i gotta attend the bash tml! Hahahas.

Speaking of which, dang, i'm breaking out like nobody's business!! Grrr. Concealer concealer! Hahahas.


Those of you who said you'll "try" to come, you better be here. If you're using "try" as a lame excuse to extricate yourself from attending the party and therefore shirking all responsibility, you've got another think coming. If you're not coming, fucking just say no. We don't have room for all of you anyway. And if any of the hosts is asking you to come, pleading with you, then you fucking well try to come. If not, don't expect to hear from any one of us again.


Hah. I'm getting super stressed out coz of so many last min stuff - last min pull-outs, last min rsvps, etc! Grr


Gotta go prep more stuff now. CYA!

never love again...

used to be that i believed in something
used to be that i believed in love
it's been a long time since i've had that feeling
- i could love someone
i could trust someone

i said i'd never let nobody near my heart again, darling
i said i'd never let nobody in

-- If You Asked Me To by Celine Dion

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Sometimes I think i'm sadistic. I like to torture myself. Knowing fully well that slow soppy love songs drive me nuts, I pulled about 45 of the slow songs from my hard drive together and played them. Sigh.

But I swear guys, this will be the last time i cry for him. I haven't cried for/about him in 3 years, and I'm not even exactly crying about him now. It's just that I've realised that right now, I'm really incapable of loving anyone. It's not that I suddenly need to love someone.. It's just that when I think about the whole lot of people in my life(i mean the guys) since him, I've really never been able to invest much emotion. It's like I told him(and almost everyone else), that I've built a wall around myself/my heart. There's an emotional barrier that I refuse to let down, simply because everytime I let my guard down, I just get hurt again.

I know I think too much, but really, I'm very upset at my inability to love anyone like I've loved him. It sounds so silly, I know. And it's not like I even love him anymore. It's like I'm stuck in limbo! On the one hand, I'm not moving forward with anyone else because of one emotional barrier, and on the other, I refuse to let myself fall into the trap that is him. Does anyone else see/understand my position now? I cannot go back to the past! I cannot love him again! But I cannot love anyone else like I did w.r.t. him! Because I'm simply incapable of feeling so strongly for anyone again.

Sigh. Cherlynn is thinking too much as usual.

Have you ever been in love?
You could touch the moonlight
When your heart is shooting stars
You holding heaven in your arms
Have you ever been so loved?

Have you ever walked on air?
Ever felt like you were dreaming?
When you never thought it could
But it really feels that good
Have you ever been so loved?

Have you ever been in love?
You could touch the moonlight
When your heart is shooting stars
You holding heaven in your arms
Have you ever been in love, have you?

The time I spent waiting for something
That was heaven-sent
When you find it don't let go
I know.

-Have you ever been in love by Celine Dion
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Celine Dion sings straight to my heart.


I remember one period of time, I wanted to write about love. About how love is only portrayed as Great and Strong etc if the people involved had to suffer etc. Like, "Star-Crossed Lovers" or people who'd had to overcome many thousand trillions of obstacles to be together were the only ones who'd be considered to have Great Love for each other.

And I'd wanted to write about how I thought it'd be nice to experience Great Love. And write about how I'd actually experienced it already. Where mine is the type where the characters don't end up together. Where I'd already suffered a lot and there was already enough pain etc. The ending was gonna be like, I'd decide that a simple love story would be enough.

I still think a simple love story would be enough, but it's got to be LOVE. Not just a (like i'd mentioned earlier) "spur-of-the-moment, this-one-will-do" decision. And I realise that that's what i'm doing now. I'm making do, compromising etc.

Anyways, if i ever get involved romantically again, I'll want it to be simple, direct, no playing games(mind games etc), no hints, no indirect methods of expressing .. stuff.. Simple and direct.

Sigh. I guess it will never happen. EMBRACE SINGLEHOOD CHERLYNN!! You're gonna have to live with it for a looooooooooong time yet.
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So the past 2 days were ok... Friday was spent re-arranging tuition timings, eventually cancelling altogether, to attend my brother's birthday dinner at Sakura in Town. Bought out new IPods.. Hah. I kept telling my parents I didn't want it until I realised we were getting the Fifth Generation IPod with video display and photo display functions. Haha. So naturally I said YES! Haha. I don't have a pic of it to show y'all but you guys can go check out the webby. As far as I know, it's just called the Fifth Generation Ipod thingy.. And out of the three models in the pic it's the tallest. It's not nano. I dunno what it is lol. But another 30 gig of memory space is good! Hee.

Then spent today and ytd trying to config my Ipod. Damn pissed with Apple at forcing people to use their programs to config their devices and synchronise everything so that you can only play files that their devices support etc. Stupid shit. Got me cursing and swearing the whole day. Then went down to AMK for MICH's BIRTHDAY!!! Hehe. Hope you had a great day darling =) You have a great boyfriend.

SILAS AND TONG. YOU ALL BETTER GO GET A ROOM AND DO YOUR HANKY PANKY THERE! Haha. Sensitive single people like me cannot stand your antics. Worse than PDA. You all just really go get a room la. Wah liew eh. Stupid mich,ja,tong,silas,eu and gas. Can imagine at the party nx Fri, I'm gonna have to intro them to my parents:

ME: Mom, Dad, This is Michelle and her boyfriend JianAn
(mom and dad say nicefake stuff)
ME: And this is Sitong and her boyfriend Silas
(mom and dad say nicefake stuff again with stupid smiles)
ME: And this is Eunice and her boyfriend Gas
MomandDad: Ok, so where is your boyfriend?


My goodness. Sigh. My parents are totally dying to marry me off already! I can't believe it la. As i've told many of you, I've felt the pressure to get attached since Sec 3!!! Like, once I got into JC and officially knew guys, they've been dying for me to bring some guy back la! Wah liao. Sorry mom and dad, but I've got to let you down. Your very incompetent daughter here may end up at a monastery instead of walking down the aisle in a white gown.

Haha thank goodness they've managed to keep it down recently.. Only val and tong have seen my parents' desire for me to get attached la. Whew. The Party, though, will be a different thing altogether haha. They are definitely going to say something, since so many of the guests will be bringing their partners. I think my dad is gonna start interrogating some people la. Better tell arh ben to be careful wahahahahah. Arh Ben! If the pressure gets too bad I'll use you to fob off my parents K! Wahahaha. Ok la i won't la. We see how.

Anws, sigh. I'm gonna be a generous soul here and congratulate all the happy soppy couples in the world. Really happy for you guys. Just try to spare a thought for the sad depressed lonely souls here k! Haha.
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I don't wish to anticipate the future anymore.

fuck shasha

sha sha. bitch. hahaha.

RESULTS ARE OUT

My grades suck. Only UGC not out yet. But my grades still suck. Since i keep skipping tests, lects and handing up hwk late, i did pretty badly =( Surprise though, I got 2 A-s instead of just one. That's A Minuses. Sigh. Yarndink and I are pretty upset abt the Aminus for CSE =( Boo.

Anyways. Haha. Just had a VERY INTERESTING STORY REVEALED TO ME. Several parties are about to die by firing squad very soon. Some fucker is about to get barbecued by me, once I can get my hands on him. FUCKER! Hmph. Just you wait.


Ah wells. Interest levels are fluctuating!


Grr. Dunno what to write now. Am really kinda mad. Blog more later.

heh heh heh

i really ought to get to sleep soon!

anyways, just posted up one of my old poems on fictionpress and promptly got 3 responses that are enthused wit praise. Am pleased =) It's nice to get recognition for your work =) It doesn't necessarily keep me writing (because I'll write anyway) but it does make me very happy=) If you guys wanna see my stuff on fictionpress the url is http://www.fictionpress.com/~hollowmimicry heh. Do R/R if you see it =)

I'm gonna do a new fic altogether. Perhaps based on the ballerina one =)


Anyways, onward with today's blog!

Morn: Tong came over to my house wit breakfast and then we chatted and slacked around watching old-school cartoons till 1230nn (Winx Club! Justice League! Pokemon! Wo0t!!!) then went to Teru's house for the very-set-up game of bball.(Met val before tt then she went to join us. Quite obviously she went to check out my "new target" right. Hahaha) Haha. All in all it was fun la =) OK, Suyee and Teru and Tong - i had fun OK. So yah. Stop asking. Hahas. Interest can grow and decrease. We'll see how it goes. Hahaha. Then after the games we went up to Teru's house, slacked around and chatted and all. It was really fun =)

Late Aftnn: Tong and Val came over to my house and we got down to planning our Xmas party!!! Our guest list actually spanned to about 65 ppl at first but I was forced to ruthlessly reduce my no of friends so.. Now we're only inviting about 30 ppl.. Yepps. Theme-and-game-ideas-generating was really fun! Hahahas.

Evening: Val left first then tong and I had dinner at my place, then we left to meet suyee and peiwen at PS... Wanted to go to this place to play Board Games (it's actually a pub wit free board games to play) but they were closed coz someone had booked the whole place... Good lor.. So we ended up going to Hark Music School Cafe where Tong and I almost took part in the live singing competition going on... But never la.. Coz scared not enough time lol. In the end, we totally should have la. The singers were really quite bad, and the so-called judge/teacher's comments super unprofessional. No standard. Haha. We wlda won so too bad. Hahas. Then hung and chatted and all. Heh. It was great fun=) Took photos wit the P!nk Xmas tree at The Cathay!! Hahahas.


Aaaanyways.. after much persuasion from suyee and peiwen... I'm gonna succumb and go wit them to the silly SIM-UOL Bash.. Wah liao eh, like PROM like tt la. KNS. I only offered to help them wit makeup! Grrr. My ticket better be waived arh!! Haha. Suyee! Do you see this!! Hahaha. But what really suckered me into going was the stupid venue - MOS! Wahaha. Me and MOS, we have this affinity going on le. Hahaha.


Haha. All's fun, all's fun =)


Special note to YOU-KNOW-WHO-YOU-ARE: the entry you're supposed to read is not on this page anymore. Check the archives for this month and read the one that's titled "no no not now".


Ciao all =) Love (is a happy thing, when it's simple and uncomplicated!)

the seasons escape you

hahaha. it's actually Thursday lehh... Boo..

Anyways.. Today was.. An ok day all in all? Haha. A not bad day. Hah. Talkin to val on phone now.. Blog more later k! Heh

song appreciation!

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Oh boy
Baby….
Oh no no no, touch me like that
Ohh my god, baby, no, no, no, no, no


Go slow, you just don’t know
What I’d do to you
If the situation were different

It’s beat and go (go)
We’d be on this floor, it’d be on for sure
It’s too bad that we can’t


You make me wanna do, something I’d never do (never do)
Wanna go there with you (with you)
All the way there (there), touch me there (there), take me there with you (there with you)
Boy I’m scared of you
Nothing compares to you
I’m not prepared to do it


So I can’t love you (right now)
Like I want to (right now)
He just can’t do it
And it’s taking everything in me
I want to (right now)
No I want to (right now)
It’s this one rule
(And it’s keeping me from giving you my love)



I must admit
Baby ooh your kiss
It’s taking my mind
To places that my body’s never seen before
Makin’ me wantin’ more

I know you hopin’ that I
Filled a little, give a little more (yeah)


You make me wanna do, something I’d never do (never do)
Wanna go there with you (with you)
All the way there (there), touch me there (there), take me there with you (there with you)
Boy I’m scared of you 
Nothing compares to you
I’m prepared to do it


So I can’t love you (right now)
Like I want to (right now)
You just can’t do it
And it’s taking everything in me
I want you (right now)
No I want to (right now)
But it’s this one rule
(And it’s keeping me from giving you my love)


Wanna go all the way
We got a plane to save
Hey, Hey
(So you just cant have my love)



So I can’t love you (right now)
Like I want to (right now)
We just can’t do it
And it’s taking everything in me
Know that I want to (right now)
But I can’t love you (right now)
I want to
(And it’s keeping me from giving you my love)


Ooh right there right there
Touch me there, right there
ooh there, there
Right there, right there
Ooh, no
Right there, right there
No, right there, right there, right there 

Right Now - Danity Kane

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Ah yes. Apart from the intro and the outro, that's a nice song guys. Italicized parts are especially significant. Speaking of songs, I'm thinking of compiling and/or mixing my own club dance track! I know of so many great clubbing songs that never made it to the local airwaves or clubs and it's such a waste to just let them rot in "never-heard-dom"! Hahas. So once i compile the list of songs i'm gonna mix I'll put it up here. Haha. But I dunno if i'll really mix la. I haven't any good base tracks to mix with. I'll probs just compile cds. Haha

So anw. I've recently discovered that I've become a commitment phobe!

YAHH~~ I mean, so weird right?? I was always the one with the fairy-tale wedding fantasy thing and now i'm the committment phobe! That's like, so weird. It's like, coz i just feel that, at this point in my life, if i suddenly get attached, i dunno, i'd feel odd. Like, i won't know how to face the many other people I've declared to like, y'know? It'd just be weird.

This whole committment phobe thing started early this year when talking to some of my attached friends about them deciding that the guys they were with were the people they'd like to marry eventually. Gah! I really got a huge shock and couldn't imagine staying with one person for so long. hah.


Of course if i met the right person I'd be all for committment. I dunno. Haha. Eh needa make the deadline now so blog this part first! LOL.

literary appreciation

this is gonna be one heck of a texty blog entry =)

was looking at all my unfinished prose and decided to post them up lol. Starting from the oldest!!

People who have been faithfully reading my blog since JC times at least (hey i started blogging since Sec 1 ok!) will remember(i hope) that I ever embarked on this great journey to start writing a novel!! Wahaha. Fruitful endeavour THAT turned out to be.. Anyways, during the heydays of my amazing aspiration, I wrote about 800 words for the first chapter and some words for the final chapter.. And i'm gonna share the final chapter wit you guys here =)

Story goes like this - the novel was supposed to be a semi-biographical novel so it was very much about the lives of myself and my friends then. So obviously melvin was gonna play a big part in it right? Wahaha. I'd changed everyone's names though. Anw, the story (the bit abt me and him) was about the same as it had happened in real life (up until J1 wit the stupid song thing) and I'd decided to write out my own ending. This was written in end of J1 year yea so immaturity kinda prevails lol. So the ending was gonna be that after all the hussle and blah of hectic j1 life (i know - hectic??), my unhealthy diet choices had taken a toll on my kidneys and I'd undergone a massive kidney operation (hey, this cld happen to me in real life too k, val agrees lol). Melvin's character in the story, Michael, finds out and decides to pay me a visit. After a lot of talk we'll both realise that we can't be together. WAHAHAHA. So fucking true to life k. Anyways, here goes. I haven't finished the chapt yet but this is all I have at the mo. If you guys want me to continue it -- MAYBE I WILL! Hahahaha.

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OTL - Ending

In the hushed silence of the ward, his footsteps sounded like thunder on a cloudless day. Michael began to mentally rehearse what he was going to say, silently cursing himself for not having prepared his speech earlier. The sun of dusk shone in through the window and illuminated the dancing dust particles, a swirling tango of confusion. He paused in the middle of the room, hesitating. The bouquet in his hands seemed inappropriate for the occasion. They were unsuitable, too… Too large. And too gay. The flowers were too brightly colored. In the sepia all around him, they stood out starkly like neon lights in a Victorian church. A little further from where he was standing, Michael detected a muffled stirring. She was waking! With as much dignity as he could muster, he quickly made his way to her bedside and was surprised to find that she was alone, and fast asleep. Breathing an inaudible sigh of relief, he looked around to see if there was a sign of a visitor anywhere. Finding nothing, he settled quietly into the plastic white chair beside her bed.

Stray strands of hair sprouted around her pale face, framing it in a vulnerable, endearing manner. Looking at her, once strong and lively, now disheveled and weak, his heart ached and he shuddered involuntarily. He loved her, he realized. He really did. He wanted to reach out and hold her close to him, to make her pain go away. He wanted her to know, but he could not tell her.

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I know. Fucking cheesy right?? Wahahaha but i just showed it to val and she said it's very beautiful so I was so happy I decided to share it here lol. So, do you guys appreciate my use of Third Person Interior Monologue? Hahahaha. I kinda loved it.



Heh. Next piece of prose to share wit you guys is a piece I wrote when I was feeling very very emotional and all. This piece I let my Lit and GP Tutor Mr. Dio look through and he had pretty good comments about it. Hee. Kinda pleased. But as usual i didn't complete it. It was just something I had to do - writing to get my feelings out. This piece of prose had absolutely no point to it. Just enjoy. Hahahah
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Cap prose

I felt a sudden urge to feel vaguely Jay-Chou-esque and am now wearing a cap. In my room. My parents voiced their concerns for my sanity and I must say, their worries are unfounded. My sanity is intact, bundled together with my sharp wit and intelligence, sitting right under this cap. I have decided it might make a good fashion accessory, serving the dual purpose of hiding my face as well as giving the impression that I have fashionable hair. (I just looked in the mirror – very trendy. A “trucker” kind of feeling. Pity the cap screams some Chinese words about some dragon boat rowing competition). Ironically, the song that’s playing out of my Windows Media Player right now is “Going Crazy” by Natalie. How apt.

I am, indeed, going crazy. Not insane, no, it’s a sort of craziness that is driving me mad, demanding the attention of my attention. This cap has the helpful effect of pushing everything down, enabling me to sit down and write this. When I try to visualize what is going on in my head, I see a landslide. Lots of mud, rubbish and slime tumbling down and all around. I watch as it all whirls around in a violent outpouring of thought and emotion, as it takes on an aggressive nature, as it morphs into a ferocious rage. The observer in me sits back, and observes. My mind develops wanderlust and explores all sorts of hostile territories, while being unwittingly tailed by the ferocious rage. Like Hansel and Gretel, the mind happily leaves a trail behind to aid it in finding the way back to safe ground later, not knowing that the ferocious rage is devouring the breadcrumbs. My mind goes round in circles, haplessly revisiting the past hostile territories, unable to find a way out without the indicators back to safety and sanity. Bit by bit, hopelessness overcomes my mind and she is caught up in the ferocious rage, overwhelmed by its savage power. The rage eats up everything in sight, tainting happy memories and scarring them while bringing forth the unhappy, angry recollections that were buried so deep and so long ago. Outside the cap, my face is a picture of nonchalance, the fire in my eyes the only indicator of my inner turmoil.

Not too long ago this rage had only just been quelled and driven to exile in a deep corner of my heart. More recently, new emotions, hope and joy, had welled up to cover my heart in a warm chocolatey liquid. However, a single small action I noticed just yesterday unlocked the cage of the beast

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Reading it reminded me of what triggered this piece of prose. Haha. YAH. It was him again! I admit it k! Hahaha. Anyways, this time round I chose to use First Person Stream of Consciousness. Not bad eh? Hah. But i think i prefer Interior Monologue. It's cleaner.



Next up would be my most recent piece of writing - a bit of prose written during Psy Lecture sometime ago. I was bored and felt the need to just write and write. So i constructed a quick scenario on the spot and wrote it out! It's also unfinished lol, but hey, i think it's pretty cool.

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Ballerina Thingy

setting: ballet concert

characters: dancer(solo), audience including a man(the lover of the solo dancer) and his wife.

story: the man goes with his wife to a concert coz the latter wants to watch it, and he doesn't know that the star of the performance is his lover. his wife doesn't know abt his infidelity and the dancer doesn't know he has a wife

STORY:

The darkness lifts and a hush settles over the audience. Specks of dust dance in the beams of golden light, a graceful, silent sideshow to the twirling ballerina onstage. As the violins serenade the audience, she dances to their song; one, two three, twirl, two three – a romantic minuet. She and the stage are one; she knows every creak it makes, where she should avoid. In return, it caresses her feet, embraces her when she falls to it. When they are torn apart by her jumps, they inevitably reconcile – each cannot do without the other For the stage is adorned by her grace, beautified by her glory and she derives, from the stage, an abundance of energy and the courage to exhibit her deft beauty.

Onstage, she is lost in her world, the dust forming swans and gazelles, joining her in the slow tribute to a fantasy prince. Her eyes closed, her mouth open in a joyful smile, she throws her arms wide open, embracing all that is around her.

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Haha. This is Third Person Omniscient narrative. Goodness. Can you guys tell I miss Lit? Hahahahaha.



Anyways. Have been reading(like i mentioned earlier, duh) and came across something that resonates with me soundly. The book is "Lost & Found" b y Jane Sigaloff and the part that I agree a lot with goes like this:

"It's not about need. And I'm not about to do helpless female either. All I'm saying is that it would just be refreshing to occasionally meet people who are interested in getting to know me rather than my mattress. Who want to just date and see. It's starting to feel like it's the men who are dying to settle down, get married and start having children in their early thirties. Getting to know someone becomes a timed challenge, and for some reason if you're a single female most men presume you must be gagging for sex, if not a husband."

Also

"'I don't think I'm that unusual. Of course, it may be that I've set my standards too high.'

She knew the feeling. 'Most people compromise.'

'You think?'

'Definitely. No one wants to be the last one picked for the team. But I'm not interested in being someone's spur of the moment, this-one'll-do decision.'"

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Italicized words are parts I particularly agree with.


All right. Lots of thoughts for you guys to reflect on already. Heh. I'll blog more soon. Hahas. Event-blog will resume soon! =) Ciao guys!

a nice release

ahhh.. this is the life...

i think i'm just a bummer at heart =) today has been the most relaxing day i've had in ages and i'm totally enjoying it=D I know there are people who can't stand not having anything to do, but i tell ya, having nothing to do has got to be the best feeling in the world. For once, I don't have to go anywhere, i can just stay at home and get wasted =))

i'm still aching in some places and suffering a bad sore throat but hey - life's good and i have nowhere to go! I can just curl up in bed with a good book(which I'll be doing later) and read till kingdom come!! Haha. Many times I just wish I wasn't so busy - meeting my various friends, work, running errands, going to school etc. Maybe that's why I try to have as little committments as possible. As it is I already have several committments - church, tuition, cca etc. I really wanna do more stuff like take up French lessons or go with Val for latin dance lessons but to be honest, I'm really sure I can't afford the time.

Oh wells. Slacking is really my kinda life =) Enjoy it while it lasts=))
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On a sadder note - I tried to reach out to *you yesterday in an effort to revive our friendship. But you haven't replied. Either you're overseas, or my message wasn't compelling/important enough for you to respond. Spoke to Linz ytd (wheeeee love ya lin! =D) about this too and I guess now I see why she gave up on the friendship with you. Don't make me give up girl. I don't want to give up on you, but I'm getting there.
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Haha. People whom I've talked to about MILKSHAKE have decided that I was too drunk that night and have labelled me bitch la, crazy la, slut la, gone la etc. Hahahahaha. Whatever! It was fun! It's nice that Lin came to talk to me on msn =)) Really have missed ya a lot girl!!!

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Sad tt I didn't get to meet up wit Ann at MILKSHAKE. Haha. We kept making plans to meet at the toilet but cldn't so too bad. Anw, ann's the best =) She wrote me an uber sweet testimonial, I was so touched! Haha. And oh yah, there's a UB SUNY Friendster account for those who want to add it! It's uni.at.buffalo@gmail.com wahaha. I dunno who set it up but I've added it already! It seems relatively new tho, no friends yet LOL.

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Silly stupid suyee decided to post up one entry on her blog all for/about me. Wahahaha. Since it's so short I'll copy and paste it here:

Monday, December 11, 2006

yes yes i love cherlynn! :D
AND I CAN TELL HER FORTUNE!
LOL.
she can anticipate meeting her prince charming on thursday.
and spending a romantic evening with him.
whee! :b

sy- : 10:24 AM

WTF!!!! Damn freaking scary. I tell y'all, I am very NOT looking forward to this Thursday at all. It feels like a set-up K! Silly esprimere people. Hahahaha. I tell ya, I know I'm going to look like a tomato the whole of Thursday already. VERY UNGLAM CAN!!!

Hahas. Anw, I LOVE YOU TOO SUYEE =) Hee.


Till the next time guys, ciao! =* (muahs!)

aches and pains...

hahas. i tell ya, i'm aching in places i never knew existed. haha. my thigh muscles are so tight you cld snap them with a toothpick. serious! i tell ya, sometimes i dislike being tall. various reasons include:

a) you have to exert more strength when going down on your shorter girlfriends
b) easier for guys to touch your ass lol. they dun need to bend down so much
c) short singaporean guys!

hahahahas. the party ytd was quite good =) just really squeezy sweaty and hot!!! my poor little toenail and poor all my toes. Kenna step until they turn black le.

suddenly realised tt quite a lot of ppl were there haha. Favian was there then saw queue then zao. William was there and had to pay to enter. Kor was supposed to join us but we cldn't get him and his friend in through vip as well so he zaoed. Oh and ashton almost went haha. Teru also wanted to go lol. Wah i tell ya, the girl-guy ratio, as i'd mentioned earlier, was really quite bad

Anw, was a fun night all in all.. Lots of stuff happened that i simply refuse to blog abt lol. My shui and I really enjoyed ourselves =) Kept trying to meet up wit ann but failed to =( boo. Anw, by the time we finally got on the cab it was 730am lah!! MOS decided to open till 530 tt day coz the party was just too good lol then we left at around tt time or slightly later, then eat breakfast then cab. Xiao eh.

I'm so shagged. My thighs feel like can't operate anymore lol. Will blog more abt this tml i guess. Am so tired and braindrained. So i'll gush more tml. Hah. Ciao bellas!

yo y'all!!!

hehehe i'm at my darling shui's place now =) whee~~ staying over again heh

GOING TO MILKSHAKE LATER!!!!! So sad mich can't come... But ann and des are goin too! Me and shui are gonna les our way through lol. Kor may or may not be going lol. WHEEEEE. MILKSHAKE MILKSHAKE AT MOS


The exams are over y'all! UGC 100 MCQs was damn funny - the options were hilarious! And guess what our last qn was:

100) Now that you've completed your ugc111 course, you are:
a) much smarter
b) much happier
c) at peace with the world
d) you're free, you're free, thank god you're free at last
e) all of the above


WAHAHAHAHAHA funny eh? I chose E. Wahahaha


It's been a weird couple of days.. All thanks to silly tong and her big mouth and our posse of big-mouthed friends!!! WTF. Now my so-called new target....ARGH!! Yes, people, there are updates, but it's really weird coz I DID say i wasn't very serious about it!!! Now looks like i have to seriously consider it?? WTF. Haha. Ok la.

Just as I decided to really try this out, i happily saw Melvin at Boon Lay Interchange just now on my way here. Fuck it. Hahahaha. Hmm.. Judging from my response, i don't think all is well. Nope... Not well... Suyee thinks i needa clear up the thing wit him before i move on with the other thing but... I DUNNO. I don't think theres's a need to clear anything up. Coz there's nothing to clear up!!! Grr Haha.


Anws, ytd after exams went out wit my darl CAME babes!!!!!! Hee. Oh and des came along lol. It was great mann. I love my CAME so so so much =) We had lots of fun over dinner, then taking stupid photos, then walkin ard then going Labyrinth for drinks. But i didn't go coz I didn't know how late it was liao la!!! We were about to go liao then I asked what time it was then they said 11. I was like WHAT??? Haha. Had ta go home early coz didn't have $$$ then needed to take train so must catch the last train!! Hahas. So by the time i got on the train was 1130.. Got home pretty late. Then talked to Val and Suyee on the phone (one after the other) until 430?!?!?! Then went to bathe, then played game on comp, then blow-dried my hair and went to sleep le. Hahas.

I LOVE MY VARIOUS DARLS - CAME, Shui, Val, Tong, Suyee, Mich!!! Wheeee.. Love y'all lots =)


Freedom days are here guys! =)

ultimatum

yupps. feel so happy today! heh. the worst of the exams are over. though i screwed up pretty badly for my prev assignments and all, i feel better on the whole now. I'm very displeased wit the grades i expect to get this sem - ABBBB around there. Wasted my two As on UGC and ESL by not attending classes and missing a test for the former and not attending classes and not handing up my final essay for the latter. SIGH. If not these 2 got A liao =(

PSY - expecting around B- or C. Maybe even C-. Definitely my worst subject
COMMS - wooh the exam was not bad =) Studying comms for exam is relatively easy after all! Easier than psy definitely. The best part was the movies and shows. Heh. It's like lit all over again. Shd be a B due to my sucky essay and B for my verycompetent presentation. Exam... Not sure.. hopefully A but most likely B..

Studied quite hard ytd.. Heh. For comms. Once i opened my psy text ytd at about 4am, I knew i was doomed. It wasn't my text!!! Hah. Bad consequences of borrowing ashton's locker and then all the books inside get mixed up. Haha which reminds me. I asked Andrew (ashton's locker mate) about it today and he cracked a funny joke about ashton sharing the locker with some other woman. HAhahahahahah. Who knew he had a sense of humour? Lol. Kidding. Sigh. So anw, looked at the very well highlighted book and missed my squeaky clean one so couldn't study at all (coz i study by highlighting! Then how to highlight over highlighted parts plus i din wanna highlight other people's book) Yea.

I went to sleep at 11pm, woke at 2am to mug and then went to sleep at 6+am then woke up at 8+am... Hah. Amazing right, that I managed to wake at 2?? Haha. Coz my silly student from the-sch-i-used-to-teach-at called me up, then i kept cutting his call but he kept calling, then when I answered i was so confused abt who he was etc so i hung up, then he just kept calling and calling until i msged him and realised who he was, then he called again LOL. So yea. That really woke me up. Haha. They just wanted to meet me btw. At freaking 2am.. Hahahaha. Coz they were around my house la haha. But anw thanks to greg's incessant calls I woke up on time to study and managed to complete a fair bit. Hah.

Past few days.. Hmm... I last blogged on Tuesday right? Well Wednesday was good man. I basically woke up earlier than usual, at abt 12nn, then watched both Erin Brockovich and Bridget Jones 2 for exams.. Then slacked around and studied comms. And yea. Studied comms throughout till 4am switched to psy then switched back to comms. Then today exam lor. Haha. So that's it. Story of my life.


Prisonbreak rocks and so does Bridget Jones' Diary haha. I think Mark Darcy is so so so sweet, even if he is a bit ugly. Erin Brockovich was something different though. Didn't expect to like it, but i kinda did! Haha.


Last paper tml! UGC haha. I'm more relieved now coz I know some of the ugc stuff already since we had to prepare those essays.. And it's just MCQs tml coz we'd already done the essays heh. But... 100 MCQs!!!



Ayes. Off to study now =) Ciao guys!

no no no, not now!

sigh. i'm too distracted. After bathing i read a book, went online, checked mail, read blogs etc. Wrote many testimonials. And I've come to a sad conclusion.


Oh but first up: Girls Out Loud -- Definitely NOT good enough for me to re-instate Monday nights as TV nights. Nip/Tuck may be nice, but not compelling enough for me, and I love Rozz but her co-host just doesn't cut it for me. Nice concept but a bit overdone yah.


So. My sad conclusion:

Some friends you love with all your heart - and they love you back the same
Some friends you don't love as much as you ought to -but they love you a heck of a lot
Some friends you love with all your heart - and you're one of many on their list.


I think only V will know who I'm talking about. And she herself knows too. I'm not pissed with you. Just sad. I love you a lot as a friend because you taught me self-worth, you are great company and (i thought) you enjoyed my company too plus love me as a friend. I guess I thought wrong.

It's like a constant fight to be in your favour if I even want to hang out with you. Even if we talked about this before, and you did endeavour to be less like this, the endeavour failed and we're back to square one. All the issues we brought up before, like the substitute issue, the pang-seh issue, the don't care issue. Maintaining a friendship with you is like trying to get a guy. It's like a friggin BGR. I've got to wait for you to come to me, and act like i don't care much for your company or sth. It's like, afraid that trying to reach out to you too much will earn myself the label "clingy".


Maybe tt's why we lost Lin. Because out of the 3 of us only I made the effort to keep in touch with her. Because out of the 3 of us, 2 of us saw her as a friend and only 1 of these 2 made the effort to maintain that friendship. That 1 person is me.

So now the 5 of us have been reduced to 2 - me and val. It shouldn't have been like this you know. It's nobody's fault but our own. We couldn't be bothered. And now we're just superficial friends. I don't know about you, but I think it's a waste.


You see that thing on the right? The small blurb about me? You need to EARN the right to call me CHER (ie the right to be my friend) but you can easily lose it. The "you" here is in general.



Maybe i'm only writing this coz I miss you so much. But it sucks that everytime you come to find me it's because you need help with something. ONLY because you need help with something. Sure, you'll come on special occasions too, like birthdays and concerts and competitions etc. And i won't deny you've helped me a lot with schoolwork. But the meetups we had without val, those where you needed to talk? After awhile, or actually, upon reflection, I know that if you hadn't gotten to know X through Val, we wouldn't have met up so often. If X were just some other person in your life, I wonder if I'd have gotten to know about it at all. Your list is like the stock market and I never tried fighting to get higher on that list. Because I know there's no point.



And i know you don't miss me at all.

revelations

gastric


so that's what's been plaguing my stomach the past 2 weeks. hah. funny. at least i feel better now, after the medicine


been madly obssessed over prisonbreak! wentywentywenty hee


went out for lunch wit val ytd then went church to do reading. yea. heh.

anws, in "i got something new" news... bought new shorts wit val.. new ring.. and my dad bought me a new hard drive - 320gig! Hah. I think it'll last forever, but then again, I also thought my 40gig hard drive (the one u all know so well) would last forever too but look how full it is now. But 320 gig is really good. Only thing is, this hard drive isn't very portable, so i'll be bringing my 40gig-er around and then dumping everything into the 320gig one.

been spending my days trying to find out how prisonbreak season 2 goes. I've already read the recaps and synopses of all the 13 episodes available right now of Season 2. Haha. Told ya i'm obssessed. Grr.

and guess what. i just found out today that UGC ESSAYS FOR FINAL EXAM ARE DUE TOMORROW. What the!? Thanks arh. Thanks. I haven't even started on ONE. AAAAAND ESL Portfolio due tml. Gotta write up some stupid coverpage and finish up my final draft for the final essay. Basically means that i have to finish up 4 essays tonight. Brilliant. Just brilliant.

Alrighty I'm gonna bathe now, then watch Girls out Loud, then pia all of this! Needa get some work done MANN. If any UB mates are reading this, do tell me what time we have to be in sch tml? Thanks =)



I have so much to say
Wenz: I'll be here for you babe =)

lol

hahas. just decided to blog again.


COZ I NEED TO PUSH THE PICS DOWN!


I need to catch a movie. Soon. I WANNA WATCH HAPPY FEET PEOPLE!!! AND A HORROR MOVIE SOON! I'm DYING!!


Ghost whisperer was not bad! Hee. Season finale soon. Soon i'll have no more tv nights. Let's hope Girls Out Loud (wit Rosalyn and Xiaxue) will be good and worth it enough for me to reinstate Monday nights as TV Nights since Grey's Anatomy is no more and ANTM is boom too. Hah. Survivor was great =)

I LOVE AITU AITU AITU! Hee. Hot people galore but I support the becky and yul gang ALL THE WAY! WIT ALL MY HEART! Too bad i checked the site and Brad is gone =( Oh and yah, the Brad that i mentioned on my msn nick awhile back tt got so many of you curious? He's a hottie from survivor. Haha. Asian hottie. But a bit gay. In fact, i think he's gay la. He's a fashion designer hee.

But he's cute! Hah.

Alrighty gtg now. Sleep! Sleep! Hee.

wheee

dang

today woke up at 3+pm. Then went for tuition, after tt played uno wit the kids for awhile then went home. and am blogging now. Madness hah.


Since i'm so free (bathe liao and gonna watch Ghost Whisperer later!) might as well blog abt the concert ytd. Hah. First up, photos!!

(mannn... it's like 1:36am now la.. And i still gotta upload the photos but must wait damn freaking long coz uploading freaking LIMTAIAN's video to my server so he can donwlaod later!! Hais. Haha. So wait for awhile while i upload the pics.)

Alrighty here we are!

Yupps. Doesn't tong look fantastic? Wheee. Hee. And the target thing... You all dun get too excited la. I said it's a small thing. If got progress will update you all. Wahahahaha. Yah right.

Alrighty am tired. Gonna prisonbreak wit RAHRAHYOUGETTHEDRIFTETC tml! hee. can't wait. alrighty ciao guys!

ahhhh!!

hahas. must make the deadline! Haha. i'm bloggin daily yea


So anws, just came back frm the Vivace concert held by UOL SIM. Haha. Was a good event overall so Kudos to joseph and liwen and gang!! =) (Mannn, i'm infused with Joseph's perfume... Bvlgari pour homme. Wo0t!! Hahahas) Oh and the solo backstage+sound control guy Teck Sheng (aka Took Shing[coz he can't pronounce my name]) hahahaha freaking hilarious. So anws, tong and daryl won the duet section, which i totally expected. I screamed my sore throat hoarse for em!! Haha. I'm the best fan in the world man. Totally threw all my face away for tong la!!! Haha. And silas and I just screamed, took photos all night long. Kudos to Gas for turning up too!! Eunice, your boyfriend is becoming a replica of you mann!! Haha. But really, it's good tt Gas turned up to support tong haha.

I know, I'm so high right? Coz I. HAVE A NEW TARGET!!!!!!! Hahahahahaha. Of course, it's just a passing thing, but hey, life has reason! Hahahaha. Honestly it's just a small thing... But hahahas at least it's a nice diversion.


Woke up at 9+ today when tong called.. She came to my house, bought breakfast for me, then I did her makeup etc for her. Wo0t am so so so SOOOOO pleased wit my masterpiece =) Though she was already very well-crafted to begin with haha. Everyone was like tong so pretty! So girly! but so pretty! You should wear like this more often etc.. Hahaha then i was at her side bowing and bowing!!! And ppl liked her makeup K!!! I'm good, I'm good~~ RAAAAHHH!! Hahahah. Coz i picked her clothes, told her to get a nice hairband, did her makeup etc. I'm good, I'm good I'm good. Y'know it i'm good. I have ppl queuing for my services already mann!! Haha. I'm good i'm good i'm good!! Hahaha


Then went to sch to meet RAHRAHPRIYABANGBANGBOOBOOYOUGETTHEDRIFT to watch PRISONBREAK for our comms exam. Hah. Thought I wouldn't like the show but I LURVE IT TO BITS!!!! WENTWORTH MILLER WENTWORTH MILLER I LUB YOU SOOOOO!!! Hahahahahahahah. Sth's wrong man. I'm mad. Haha. But the show is good. I don't like wonky-eyed-lawyer but i think Nick Savronn(or sth like tt) is cute, and damn, all the inmates, i lurve em all mann!! Esp Michael(main character)'s CELLIE! Hahaha. Latino gets me going. I love shows tt make u think!!


Anw, then was the concert, which i'll blog abt and post pics of later.

I'm high!!! Hahaahahaha. Today was a great day!!! =) Wheee~~ And din hafta spend much money mann. Daryl bought all my food for me today (since i was stuck downstairs wit rahrah watching prisonbreak) and just hung at sch. Cabbed down to sch frm home (tong paid first) and shared a cab back wit Hanhui(Teru) coz he wanted to hear my gossip(aka who my new target is... yea he's from sim) so yea I only had to pay like $4 for the cab ride in the end. Hahahaa. Sharing cabs rocks. Thanks teru!!! Hahaha.



I'm high! And no, though i have a new target (and ppl actually approve), I am not gonna get serious about this. Hahahahaha. It's just good to have eye-candy plus crush or sth. Hee.


Crushes make the world a nice place! Hahahahahaahahahaha. Ok i'm certified MAD. =)

haahhas!!

oh man. i just finished YET another layout. Hahas. Oh wells. you guys bear with this one first. I'll leave it up till everyone's screamin for the other one! Heh

The other one can be viewed here, btw.

Cable tv rocks. WLIIA rocks. Pls pls network execs pls bring back WLIIA! =)


Haven't mentioned val in awhile, so HELLO BABE!!

And MICH =)
AND EUNICE=)
AND TONG=) Hee.


Btw, I feel really bad for this. I wanted to wish Wenz happy birthday on Midnight of morn of 25th Nov but fell asleep coz I was sick. Then the whole of 25th Nov I was like, ok must msg her at 12mn tonight. Then dunno what I was doing then forgot!? Then the next day want to msg to apologise then until now still haven't =(

WENZ - HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! BELATED!. You now have the license to slap me when u see me. Sigh. Love ya girl =)

newness!

hahas. new layout. at last right. the other layout was killing me. I don't really like this layout very much either but hey! Chad Michael Murray! =)

Enjoy this while it lasts. Haha. CSE exam today guys. Was ok I guess. I kept telling myself to do slowly, not to walk out too early. Hah. Dun stress people out. So I was like totally taking my time. But enjoyed myself during this exam. Quite perverse eh? Haha. I liked the javascript writing bit. Really fun =)



Argh. Can't say the same for the next few papers. Gotta mug mug mug soon! Aye. Pics comin up and, TAG PPL!


On a happier note - we got our cable today! As in, cable tv. Hah. HBO love and TVBS love! Haha. Though I wished we had celestial, starmovies, starmovies chinese too! Oh and the Disney channel and Cartoon Network! Haha. But if I had all these I'd be glued to the tube man. Heh.


PS If you want/don't want your link added, pls tag and say so. Or msn. Whatever =)

aye

cse exam tml... i dun even know what time it is.. aye. and my throat hurts real bad. and i haven't revised for cse yet!! gonna go revise now heh. nth much to report... had a lazy day today=) and anw, had first tuition today after a nice break. hah. ok gtg. throat. hurts.bad.bad.bad.

ps new courses for nx sem are out -- MATHS!?!?!?! grrr

various temptations...

so i was just about to go and sleep when i though, "ah heck, let's just get down to blogging"

y'know, i've never really blogged about what i wanted to properly blog about coz so many things just keep happening. haha. oh wells


mos wit my came ppl was fun! haha. not really what i'm used to coz i'm used to just chiong-ing the dance floor asap and dancing for really really long, while this time we hung around for qt awhile before actually dancing. first we walked around smoove, then the main arena, then went to 21(i think tt's the name) then went to the vip room (i really dunno the name of tt one). haha. tell ya, the stupidest was in the vip room. we were what fuck standing there watching soccer? i was like, dancing there already and people were just hanging around screaming and watching the soccer tt was projected on the wall?! haha. so sorry girls if i kept screaming about wanting to go and dance haha.

then we went for drinks first before they decided to dance. haha. anw, you don't need a blowby. so anw we danced at arena, the place was freaking PACKED!!! PACKED!!! cldn't even move i tell ya. after maddie, zk and their friend darius left, evy and i went to join ann, des, lena and their friends and i tell ya we freaking danced beside the amp all night! freaking vibrations. haha. anw, was great to see ann and des tgt =) they looked really happy dancing tgt and ann was so proud of des. haha yah la des is a good dancer i admit K! haha.

i need to stop dancing the way i do (though it's really damn good exercise lol). hahaha. and i need to stop looking like a lesbian. haha. evy and i danced thigh to thigh, tell ya, damn what la! haha. thigh to thigh as in like, her thigh my thigh her thigh my thigh. wooh. hot sia. haha.

we left earlier than my usual.. (my usual = when the music stops and the lights come on hahaha) at abt 3+ 4, then went to liang court mac's etc. tt's when I felt the effects of mixing liquors. Haha. I know, the drinks were very NOT hardcore but wth I like my drinks sweet la! apricot brandy, galliano coke and bacardis - tt's what we had (bacardi 1-for-1) and i'm ashamed to say, it was the first time i mixed alcohols. my stomach was already queasy in the morning and aftnn then mix liao wah! almost died. lucky nv puke lol. Thanks to whoever it was tt bought us all drinks after tt at macs -- green tea saved my life lol.

i cabbed back to shui's hostel where i was crashing for the night heh. Gotta love my babe shui much =) She's the perfect host ever!
a) offered to lend me like, everything of hers and all the good stuff! like she'd take out her dior addict lipstick (brand spanking new) and lent me her good shampoo and dior bathing stuff and etc etc and all her makeup! shui you're too generous!
b) helped us get into the club through vip when our rather big party of 9 cldn't make it onto des's guest list and the queue was too freaking long by the time we arrived. (even though she wasn't there!!) thanks shui love ya loads!
c) almost gave me her bed to sleep in lol. in the end we shared, heng. if not i'll be so paiseh i'd sleep on the floor and not move until she agreed to sleep in her bed la!
d) tended to my needs kept me company etc even though she was mugging hard for her exam the next day!!!

anyways, by the time we both slept (she was up mugging) it was 730am like tt? haha. so stupid. i was feeling queasy and bad and all haha. Thanks a lot shui i love you so much hehe. Hope i didn't mess up ur room and hope you liked my little (very little) surprise. Heh. And your bed - i really wanted to go wash ur bedsheets de hahaha but then scared later by the time dry i already reach home liao so haha sorry babe.

love ya shui!!!


so anyways, we're going for MILKSHAKE at MOS on 9th December. All of you LOLLYPOP KIDS! BETTER COME!!! I BETTER SEE YOU THERE OR ELSE!!! Wahaha. Seriously if you're comin right, tell me soon hah. Dunno whether later got repeat incident then need to use what guest list again. Wahahaha.

it was always too late

whoa. it's like, time really flies



so yesterday(Tuesday) I took a long walk home through the pouring pouring rain

all I know is tt it was cold
and i got fever again
and I only got scared when the lightning struck.


at one point the lightning struck and i thought it struck me! I know, damn drama. I wish it had, and tt I could have died a quick one.

but stuff doesn't happen like tt.


it was just very cold
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don't ask me why. i forgot my umbrella, and i didn't have the heart to ask my mom to come out of the safe dry warm house to hand me an umbrella. with her back like tt somemore. anw, i'd been wanting to walk in the rain for a while now. I needed to feel the rain beat down on me, the water trickling down my face, into my eyes, into my mouth, just drenching me through and through.

it felt good in a bad way, like the most forbidden of all temptations. it got cold when the wind blew, tt's all.
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aye, been a bad day today. i crashed again ytd, just crashed. missed ugc ytd... got home and the rain thing crashed me again, so missed esl today. though tt one is a story tt's a whole lot more complicated and i don't wanna talk abt it.

met tong to help her shop for her talentime clothes today. then we went to take neoprints, play arcade and watch movie!! All things i've been craving to do for awhile now and never been able to find someone to indulge me. Thanks tong, you rock =)

Step Up was great =) Y'know, I really love Channing Tatum in tt show. Hot bod and striking looks aside, his laidback and nonchalant look was soo... YUM. Hahaha. The girls were hot too, I think Lucy(in the show) was especially gorgeous and Miles is cute =) Haha. I love all the dance routines and music and all, and am currently poofing the STEP UP OST. Haha. Aye. We shall not talk abt romance. Cupid- get thee away! Singaporean guys are just freaking boring and too damn self-centred. Girls agree? Haha. Tt's why I'm only gonna find my man when I go over to either UK or US. Wheee.

Speaking of Step Up, tml my C.A.M.E girls and I are going to MOS. Haha. Our first time clubbing tgt, wonder how it'll be. Shd be fun =)) Haha. Can't wait to dance after watching Step Up!! We're gonna have ourselves some flings aren't we, single girls? BRING IT ON! Wahaha. Damn, I sound freaking deranged.

Val's comin over tml so we can mug =) Then she's gonna crash psy! Wheees. Haha. I love it when my darls come visit me in sch. Feels like bringing my family around wit me. Love you guys so much.

Arh Ben -- I just KNEW IT! Hahahaha. You so ulu-ated you sure haven't go the National Library yet. Hahahahahas =) Miss ya darl. Let's meet up real real soon! Hahas. I'm super excited to see what u got me!!! Can u just tell me? I'm like dying of curiosity!! Hahas.

Gonna sleepover at evy's tml, so don't count on my blogging on time!
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it was always too late

self-inflicted

dunno why i'm torturing myself like tt







my whole body is crashing. i'm super fatigued. slept just now for an hr and when i woke up, i was so dizzy and felt like puking etc. mann. lack of sleep sucks.


tv was good. antm =) and that ghost show!




today, sorted lots of things out with people. see? we shd always give each other a chance and not jump to conclusions etc. and no, i don't care what ppl i dunno say abt me. i know who's worth caring abt and who's not. so you can take ur gossip abt me and shove it up your humongous arsehole(which, funnily enough, is on your face, right below your wonk of a nose). Hah.


Funny. Anws. Whatevs. I cldn't care less. I know you read my blog. Asking out of politeness only yah. I mean c'mon, yarndink links my blog and u visit her blog, DUH? I may have done badly for As but i'm not dumb=) no offense intended.


Politics suck but hey, i think we all mature through the process. At this stage, all of us are learning new things about ourselves. Jac learnt abt not hating ***, I learnt not to care what ppl say, Val learnt tt she loves trannies. WAHAHAHA Ok i'm kidding abt tt last one. Tong learnt what it's like to like/love someone, Eunice learnt more abt me, i guess


I just need to learn how to keep loving myself! Haha. Funnily enough, this phrase has been thrown all over the blogosphere recently. Fuck gossip. Let's all not give a shit. I don't care when ppl gossip abt u, u dun care when ppl gossip abt me. I will defend u like u asked me to, coz aye, I feel a need to publish the truth(my journalism ideals haha) and i really had nth against u. As for whether you want to defend me, whatev! Haha. There are people who defend me, and then there are people who really defend me.
(Oh and just to make things clear, yes helena, i'm referring toyou lol)


As for the melvin issue. Haha. Wisdomless Kor and I have not talked abt much more. I dunno. Move on, move on, i guess. Have kept moving on and "bury"-ing for 5 years, another 5 years wouldn't hurt. I just wish I'll meet better people.



Oh and giving other people a chance is scary. They take it the wrong way and start assuming you're their girlfriend or sth. Much as I want someone to report to, it's not you. Sorry!




I know the prev entry was very angsty. I mean every word. I don't care what other ppl in general think abt me -- i'm confident that way -- but I know what i am so yea. There is no need to cheer me up or what.

Haha Arh Ben -- strangle what i think is not true. Wahaha. I'll strangle unicorns and fallacies and lots of other stuff man.




Very rambly entry i know. I dunno what I'm doing these days. Zombie-fied! Too effing tired. Oh presentation was ok i guess, i spoke REEEEAAALLY fast as usual. Hahahas. Actually, I was faster than usual. Which got stupid "choo-choo-train" comments from the king of all bengs mr jostian himself. Wtf. Haha.



Oh. And melvin isn't wit her. Kor CONFIRM. haha. Stupid. It's just so odd tt kor can know so much abt how i feel, and i dunno if melvin knows tt kor knows, but whatev, it's weird tt they can be "quite good" friends. WEIRD. Guys are weird. Oh but kor cannot confirm he's not wit anyone else.


Aiyah. One-sided then one-sided lor. What to do. I think a few weeks ago I'd already resigned myself to being one-sided liao. I still feel stupid. I can still see the loser side of him, but I'm freaking painting a nice image of him again! Stupid right! Absence, oh u really make the heart grow fonder.


Blame it on James. JamesBond. Haha. Watched Casiono Royale wit my family on Saturday. Wah freak man the sex/almost-sex scenes... SO HOT!! Wahaha. Though i don't really like Daniel Craig's body(too beefy!!), I tell you, the girls were so freaking hot they made up for it. Oh and we watched it at Vivo GV, after I went to the National Library at Bugis to study. WTF la. I'm super slow. It's my first time there leh! Can u believe it?? FIRST TIME!! Haha but i bet arh ben, you haven't even been there =) haha. So i'm not so loser yet! Wahahahaha. Anw yea so was studying then i actually brought lots of stuff. Heavy stuff! Then i had to walk ard vivo wit my parents and brother and my dad was so irritating! Refused to let me put my stuff down in the car first(coz the car was too far away) Then i had to freaking lug it around! Then at one point i asked him to hold for me while i went to get my hot dog, HE HAD THE HEART TO PASS IT TO MY MOM??? Hello!!! Mom's back isn't even recovered yet lA!!! She still cannot sit down etc!!?!?!?!?!


Damn fed up. But anw, it's all over. Plus he accidentally gave me extra allowance this week so I'm not telling him. Wahahaha. Evil evil.



Paid for Rahrahbangbangboobookiangkiangspreeeeeeyagarypapaya's bday prezzie today lol. Her prezzie from her besties is so gorgeous!!! This really expensive LOTR necklace with the ONE RING hanging from it!!! Damn gorgeous. Haha. It's good to have great friends.


Rahrah! I know u read this. When you do come and visit lol. Hmm, i wanna tell ya tt people can be insensitive/ignorant but they don't mean it, or it wasn't deliberate! I understand the race issue girl =) Try to be less prickly? Hah. Then you'll find tt actually people aren't so bad? Heh. LIKE MEEEE. Hahahaha.


Funny how so many of my close friends hated me at first. Hah. Whenever i think of these people it makes all the backstabbing/gossipping easier to bear. Coz I know these gossipmongers don't know me, just like how my now-close friends didn't know me in the beginning, then when they got to know me they just loved me for who i am =) Wheee~
These people include!! Jac, Tong, Edna, HNL ppl, Mich. I think tt's it? Haha. Other ppl who hated me before becoming my friend right, I can't rmb le. Haha. Bygones, bygones. Funny eh? How first impressions count, but they don't in the long run. Coz what's important is acceptance and open-ness(?).



CAME are gonna drunk ourselves concussed when finals are over. A lot of bad stuff happening for the 4 of us lately, esp in the BGR realm. Haha. Sounds so superficial right. But we're all so suay. Sighs.



I need anti-depressants. Or substance abuse.

i don't know...

i guess you could say



i'm quite shattered




aye. i know. i've been advised against this so many times and i keep doing this. I see the trap laid out and I just willingly walk into it. Again. and Again. And AGAIN.



i can't sleep





so what happened was tt kor came n asked abt the prev blog entry, then SUDDENLY rmbed to tell me tt he was playing soccer wit him just now. Thanks arh. Cannot tell me earlier one right. Then.. Just said stuff tt made me very.. BANGBOOMPOWSLAPWTFPOPBAMPOOM. Basically.. Kor feels tt it's all very one-sided. On my side.




sigh.. i know, i know.. i said it was more or less over. Girls are cheap, rmb? And i'm of the cheapest variety.




I know I need to move on. I feel very demeaned. But there's no way to move on unless there's someone new! And there isn't. It's all so impossible. The one(s) tt like me (or whatever they're trying to hide) are just... not my type... And the nice ones, they just won't lower their sights to my standard one. I'm simply not good enough!

My current guy friends are just tt -- friends. I'm just friends with most all of the males i know. And it's very obvious. And even if i like any one of them -- HELLO?? I seriously have no standard la. Dun tell me i deserve better. Tell that to the people who ARE better. Dun fucking boost my morale for nothing when I'm not what you think i am. Stop telling me fuck like "They should see the niceness in you" or "You're more desirable than *insertnameofhot/chio/popularwitguysgirlhere*, i don't understand why no guys like you"

FACE IT. I don't appeal to fucking guys tt way. I am
A) Physically unattractive
B) Passive/Aggressive
C) to sum it up - a lump of faeces.


Yah. Self-esteem is fuck. Confidence = sexy? My fucking ass. Confidence+physicallyattractive THEN = sexy. Not otherwise. I'm more aware of where I stand then any of you realise. So stop trying to comfort me with your meaningless words of praise. I know all about the art of euphemism - i know what your honeyed words belie. For every word of praise you shower, I know you mean I am lacking in every other department.


So what if i have good character?
So what if, according to some people(this was told to be by someone who overheard), I have a very attractive personality?
SO WHAT?

Who gives a fuck.







Yah. I'm pissed. Dead pissed. I dunno. Angry with myself. Angry. Rage does weird things to me sometimes. I may accept people I wouldn't under normal circumstances. I think I'll accept him. Even if I don't know him. I mean. I need an outlet. He's there. Whatever! Who fucking cares about how he'll feel? He'd be honored i even mentioned him in here. Fucker.


Sometimes I just wish I never broke wit zong. Then if we went on tgt, he could have made me happy, and I could have overlooked/changed whatever aspects of him tt i wasn't happy with. I was too immature to see that I guess. At least he's tall!!


Other times I wonder, why can't i just like my current guy friends? I mean, my two close(st) guy friends come into mind -- Arh Ben and Kor. I mean, I've mentioned several times how i think kor is really quite shuai etc. (he's sibeh haolian) But, for some reason, i just don't. Haha. I also dunno why.. I mean, the fact tt i even have to think about it..? As for Arh Ben, we'd cleared this issue between us LONG AGO. Donkey years ago! Haha. We just don't like each other that way. How sad right. Coz arh ben is such a nice guy, any girl would be lucky to have you as boyfriend! I mean, seriously, arh ben is fucking nice. Nice nice nice nice nice! I know i can always always always count on him. I can msg him ANYTIME and he'll not be offended. He will always have time for me. Y'know, just perfect boyfriend material. But aye. Say already. Dun like. Not tt way.


Other people I've so-called targetted - pui. Since when have i been serious abt anyone after melvin? I don't have the guts to anymore.




I just want someone who loves me, whom i love (duh), whom I can msg to report where I am everytime I go somewhere, someone I can shower gifts on, someone I can love!!

Fuck. I should stop daydreaming. Coz it's never gonna happen to a pile of shit like ME.



Maybe i can sleep now.

my ghost

hmm. sigh. been thinking a lot about him lately.


Ghost

I turned to my right and you were there
Smiling you took
My burdens to bear
I knew in real life you wouldn’t even care
So content I was in my castle in the air

I turned to my left
Turned into your embrace
In the ghost of your hug
I felt so safe
I never knew the feeling
Where time stopped in space
But I know I saw forever
In the ghost of your face

I continued walking
I held a stony glare
My imaginary you
Was all that I had
You weren’t beside me
You would never be
Caring and considerate to me

I opened my eyes
And turned on my pillow
There you were
My dear bedfellow
Fondly you smiled
And fingered my hair
All the world stopped
Your touch was all I could bear

In the evening breeze
I almost feel your hand
Your fingers and mine
Entwined
I pause and shivered
You stopped there too
Gave me your jacket
Clichéd but thoughtful

The harsh cruel wind
Slapped me out of my dream
Determinedly I walk on
The ghost of you lost
I sigh and exhale
A puff of desolate regret
So many things to do
But I just can’t forget.

I walk on in circles
My feet slowly pounding
And in my heart’s eye
Our memories I’m hounding
So I can reconstruct for me
A more vivid ghost to see
Then I hear a cough
A whisper of my name
I turn to look
And turned into your real embrace.

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Maybe this silliness will go away tomorrow
So for now just let me wallow
In my own misery
Just let me be

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I give up! I've really been thinking a lot about him recently... But i have the feeling he's together with her now. Hah. Ohwells. Anw. Lots to blog about. Soon! Haha. And new layout coming soon too. Shd be able to blog more next week. After COM101 presentation i'll be all done!! hee.

Alrighty guys see ya soon!!

And yes, my mom's fine now=) Thanks all for the concern!!
PS: broke another nail today =( OUCH. Right index finger. Sigh.

ayee... i know. i know. i'll be blogging later today k! lots to blog abt

in the meantime, really tough qn for esl! grr. gotta do. and gotta go study for ugc test now! ciao guys =) blog more soon!

really have loads to blog abt! =)

busy busy busy!

argh really busy


projects, hwk, assignments. i'll be glad when this week is over

oh and tuition is starting again
sigh. three times a week
sigh


my mom's in hospital now. hurt her head. x-ray.

blog more later

meeting deadlines!

argh better post this before i have no time

as usual i'm rushing to do homework

and rushing to blog on time heh

ok. have loads to blog abt

life's weird. i'm confused. sigh

maybe. baby?

so i saw something really cool on the bus ride home

A rawther gigantic sign saying THINK TOFU on the wall of Bukit Timah Plaza(i think, or was it Beauty World? Hmm)

How friggin catchy! =)

You will pardon the disjointed thoughts today. Sorry for not blogging for two days.. Internet screwed and generous neighbour decided to be not-so-generous heh.

anw. have more to blog abt but watching WLIIA now lols.

past few days have been fine =) managed to finish my work sort of in time heh.

ok ok say more soon =) see ya guys!

arghs

i think i'm gonna sleep first.. grr

finish up my draft tomorrow! i just blogged the prev entry arh.. dun be fooled by the time haha coz i loaded the page way earlier than i started blogging =) see ya guys

me and my nobody

am sleeeeepyyyy am very very sleeeeppyyy

but hafta... finish... esl draft..! dang.

watched too much youtube and played too many games la! Hais. And still hafta finish comms proj and study psy! Thank goodness tml once i finish cse shd have time to study..

wanted to write a poem just now. dunno if i have the strength to do so now. and voices scream CHERLYNN! DO YOUR HOMEWORK! hmms. they sound oddly like my mother. and val. and tong. and shui. lols. having hallucinations!


My Date With Nobody
T'was a fine sunny Tuesday
As pleasant as can be
I was looking forward to this day
I had a date, you see.

The man was truly quite shy but
He hid it oh so well
His face glowed red when he let out a fart
And then he tripped and fell.

When he stood up again he said,
In a voice that sounded strangled,
"These are for you" and handed me red
Roses that were all mangled.

I stifled a laugh and expressed my thanks
His red did not subside
As we left my block, he held my hand
With a grip that was sweaty and tight

Barred from his knowledge, I was, like him,
Feeling very nervous.
For though his veneer was truly quite thin,
He had an impressive history of lovers.

We sat and talked over fish and chips
About nothing in general
And by the time we gave the waiter his tip
I thought I was at a funeral

He could seem hunky to some other people
But our date was oh so boring
I want a man who can make me giggle
From the night until the morning

Impressive you are, good looks and all
You even have the body
But without the wit, the charm and the balls,
You are just nobody
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BRAINDRAIN GUYS! I'm so dying. And the poem's quite bad. I didn't want it to turn out this way. Will write another one soon! Ciao guys! Heh

javascript

whee~~

i so love loops! haha. i just finished coding my page on Guessing someone's age! For all of you who are looking for an algorithm to analyze, look no further! I'll write one here, but it's a code ya, not an algo. go to http://dontfallinlove.net/playaround.html to try the function out and you can view the source code there. ask me if you don't understand anything. THIS OFFER SPECIALLY FOR CSE 111 STUDENTS only! I'll be writing more programs soon so hang in there! =)

Don't worry guys i'll be writing more soon - i'm hooked! Thinking of what other programs i can write and have fun with =) However, my knowledge is rather limited, especially like, limited mainly to loops and if else statements so dun ask too much of me k! Hee

yupps. will update more soon. was watching tv wit my momma just now - The 1030 show on CH8 is really really really good!!! Freakin scary la!! Wo0t! heh. Then watched Fear Factor. Damn gross. I nearly puked. Haha.

KK. will update more soon. Love y'all bitches n hoes! hee

loya!

random title yah.

heh. ytd eeeeeveeee stayed over!! =)) whees. we did comms project a bit and talk a lot.. then go and sleep lol. then now also pia-ing project but also project a bit talk a lot. but we heng the people we interviewed super helpful sia coz they just answered all the questions we needa answer for us lor, haha.

anw. I think like got quite a bit to blog abt. Oh yah. Now in school. We are super SPYing and BITCHing hehe. Dammit i'm a BAD BAD GIRL!! Heh. My eeeeveeee is my proud proud protege=) hees. *hugs*

Wells, on Friday, the day after i broke my poor ol' nail.. Edna came over to school to join me for lunch! And gave me a bday treat etc=)) Whees. Then we met Tabbs heah at the drinks stall so it was kinda like a mini 4GY reunion!! Heh. Happy. I dunno why nowadays my typing got so many "s"s.. Haha.. Like I wanna say happy i will say HAPPIES. Haha. or like, Tabbs and Whees and Hugs.. Sighs.


SEE??? SIGHS wtf


Then yea! ESL was kinda fun. Love my yiting and priyarahrah and yarndink and weilin! Heh.

Okies Saturday went out wit Valval. Haha OMG why am I in such a hunny bunny mode?? Like totally repeat ppl's names and sound so act cute. Brrr.

Anyways yea went out. Haha. People! I'm on a DIET!!! At least, when my period is over my diet will start ya. Hee. Did a funky black pedi wit gold topcoat! Whee. Haha. Yupps.

Today was good ba.. Hees. Went for lunch wit val today bought the FOX fleeeeeece sweater! $23 only!!! Yumms! Heh.


What else..?? Hmms. I love my eeeeeveeee! Hehe=) *muahs.


-- kua kua kua -- *heh!=P*

heyyy

hey guys

about to rush off to church but i'll make this a quick one=))

I'm on a quest to get rid of all my unwanted fats!! And save money at the same time!! =))

haha yea. alrighty will blog more later. sorry for not bloggin ytd.. the internet was down ya

bye all!


anGRY, hunGRY n what else?

more pics!!

Just more pics!

oooh la la

i'm in the school canteen now hehe. yiting just asked me what i am doing now=) Hahaha

ok will blog more later.. gotta do my essay outline. UGC was ok =) Actually quite great la.. the first question i anyhow bang also got it correct WHEEE hahaha.

blog more later! lotsa pics!=)

oh and yes

haha forgot to mention abt other stuffs..


rebonded my hair after school on Tuesday.. priyadarl was there wit me throughout the whole thing heh. Poor girl, if not for my alien antics i think she'da been so so so bored! Haha. Bye Spreeya! Hehehe

So yea! Better hair. My goodness been waiting for this for so long la. Now i'll have better hair for about a month heh. Then i can go cut it and have good hair for another about 3 months. Hee. Wheee. I'll let ya have a look -- recent-er pics! =)

Rightos.. More photos comin up! Heh. Mainly of cca and tong! Hee. See? Better hair all around. =) Alrighty needa sleep now. Quiz tml and haven't studied!! Grrr *hates self* See ya all soon! =)

ouch

my gawd


i broke a nail in the worst way possible. it's OUCH. OUCH OUCH! My left thumb, in case you were wondering. it hurts so bad! i was smoothing my skirt (wit my left hand duh) before sitting down on the bus when it (the bus) jerked and i fell, landing on my thumb and causing the nail to fold in all the way. OUCH LA!! It tore pretty bad, almost halfway into the part tt covers the flesh.. It didn't tear properly and i had to "finish the job" myself!! Freakin ouch!! It bled like the Red Sea la omg=(


Oh wells. Today was odd.. I woke up at 230pm, bathed and dressed and etc left the house at 350 and arrived at psy lect at about 415. Got a cab pretty fast i guess, within 5 mins after i left the house heh. Anw, was a guest lecturer today, some suave debonair psychologist called Felix.

Oh the most irritating/stupid/insulting thing happened today! Dr Yeap, my psy lecturer came down to me when lecture was ending and sorta patted my back(i was wearing a halter) and said "You not cold arh!" then after like.. i dunno how to describe what she did.. the affectionate grandmotherly stroking k, she was like "wah u so warm!" then i nodded, and then she said "yah la got fats to keep you warm" WTF!!! Hahahaha super what can! I was totally like "Dr Yeap! I dun like you anymore!!" hahahaa. Funny la.

And yea guys i know i've been putting on weight. I've been stocking up on the food ya. Heh. Will eat less ok! I promise! I needa lose the stupid flab off my arms and back! Dunno how they crept up on me without me realising it!! Grrrr.

CCA was fun, we went for dinner and had lots of fun what with LTA(lim tai-an), me eating non-stop, paparazzi and all. Super fun sia!=)


Anw, lots of ppl were upset tt i didn't mention them on the Thank Yous for birthdays thingy! So i have some public apologies to make:

Apparently, edna was also one of the first to wish me happy birthday via sms! She sent me a msg at 0000 sharp and i guess coz my freakin lousy phone is so lousy i musta not received it =( Boo. So thanks edna babe! Lookin forward to meetin ya tml!! =))

Also, wenz wished me in school on the day after, but she wanted to wish me on the day itself, only tt she didn't think it'd be good to scream out at me from the atrium (we were on different floors)

I stated arh ben's time of call wrong, and val's time of msg wrong. So sorry! Read the tags guys!


Yupps. That's abt it! UGC quiz tml and ESL Quiz n outline to study for and do! Grrr. Needa go now!=)


PS WLIIA still rocks heh. I have no life! (and i'm determined to sleep more nowadays! Heh)

more, more, mooOOOoOOoOOre!!

hey guys!!

continuing wit the bday blog thing. so anw. after the family dinner, i had my 3rd bday celeb on Sunday -- brekkie wit my HNL peeps!! Love love love. I'm so touched tt you guys turned up la! I thought it'd only be shui!! Thanks guys! The cake was delish and i really appreciate your presence(s) heh. Then we went to arcade and played our fave touchscreen games!! =)) Hee. Some things never change ya. Then kor drove us to our respective destinations! Whee~~ A man who can drive is sexy!! Haha. Eh but kor don't get d wrong idea! Haha. I'm just saying in general ya.

Love you guys lots! =))

Yupps! Heh. Next celeb was wit my family again, extended(family) this time.

The pix speak for themselves =) Ain't tt a lovely cake?? Hee.

Then came the day itself!! My fifth bday celeb was wit my fave ppl in the whole wide world!! =) The darlings came down to my school to celeb wit me=) Might I just add how much i love your gifts guys =)) So thoughtful!! Haha now I can go hang at Starbucks whenever I want. And val -- you know what I wanna say ya =) *idiot grin*

That girl there*points up* in the striped polo tee is the fantabulous Anita b! =)) Hee much love =))

Then when I went for tuition after tt.. My tuition kid T1 and her sis T2 celebrated(sorta) my bday for me too! And when their mom returned, we had Mac's together and she gave me a prezzie! How sweet! =)) Pics of this comin up soon.


So there we have it. 6 cakes and 6 celebrations this time round =) Pretty much improved from last year I guess =)) Love you all so much guys! More blog to come!



--- Special mention to people who wished me happy birthday in various ways ---
1) All the people who celebrated wit me before the day itself - tong, silas, eu, gas, mom, dad, shui, kor, wenz, will, aunties, uncles, cuzzies and granma =)
2) The sms-Cherlynn-happy-birthday competition results:
FIRST - Val (23:58 according to my hp but 00:01 according to hers. I know my hp's slow so she's accepted! =))
SECOND - Ann darling! (23:59 according to my slow hp)
THIRD - KOR (00:00 according to my hp!!)
4) eunice! =) (08:10)
5) weiyang[student frm d sch i used to teach at] (09:38)
6) ky [ ditto ] (09:39)
7) aifang [ ditto ] (09:39)
8) shumin! (10:36)
9) ruiling [ ditto ] (13:26)
10) charm (18:18)
11) darLinZ! (20:34)
12) hanhui (20:59)
13) reeenananana [ur freaking long msg flooded my super lousy inbox!! haha] (23:16)
14) yiting! (00:00)
15) qisheng! (00:41 the nx day)
16) kenneth (09:09 the nx day)

Woooh~~ awesome haha. Other people who wished me happy bday in alternative methods include

-through MSN nick: shui and jac
- in person: schoolmates! including eve, ann, vita, priya, yarndink, weilin, etc!
- through ESL journal thing: my english teacher Glenda and classmate Deva!
- through Friendster (msg/testimonial): wuhshing, annequen and vivek!

Er the other alternative methods I can't remember, but I must make a VERY SPECIAL SHOUTOUT to mah homie ARH BEN!!!!!!!!

Seriously, if you were arh ben, you'd be so pissed wit me right now! I think i must be the only crazy person on earth who wishes to go to sleep early on the day before her bday. Anw, I went to sleep at effing ten plus! Haha. So i didn't look at any of the midnight msgs until after Arh Ben called. Tell ya! When Arh Ben called, I half thought it was my alarm ringing! Then I put it to my ear and vaguely recall hearing arh ben say sth. Then I heard sth like "sing you a birthday song!" and i can't remember anything after this. I wanna say SORRY SORRY SORRY arh ben!! OMG. Thanks so much for the effort dearie! I don't even know if I fell asleep while you were talking or something! I only know I was so groggy!! Then the next day when I woke up I thought it was a dream but then I checked my "answered calls" and i saw ur no!! Aiyoh. *whacks self* sorry arh ben!

Anw, lookit the tagboard heh. The song is cool yah! Has rhyme and all! Scantion needs work but great job anw ben!! Hee. I'll plug it here to immortalise it =)

Happy birthday to you
This comes from the wolf
Happy Birthday to Cherlynn
Happy birthday to WU~UUU!

Heh. To understand the significance you must understand our internal joke tt arh ben is a wolf yah. A WEREwolf. Haha. And that last sound (WU~UUU!) is, I presume, the howl of a werewolf at a full moon. Heh. I LOVE YA ARH BEN! Once again, so so so so so sorry!!




Yea well, thanks to everyone who made this birthday so special! =) I love you all muchos! =)

oh man


i just can't get down to blogging coz there's so much to blog abt! it's like blogdrain! heh

first bday celeb: Saturday 281006 wit MESC bunch, specifically sitong and her boyfriend, mich and her boyfriend and eunice and her boyfriend. Great. Haha. Well, it was mainly tong and silas coz mich didn't turn up (went to doctor) and met eunice later wit gas. We were K-stering so it was great=)

Yeps. Heh. That's her boyfriend(Silas) and her at the bottom right. Yea i know, fugly pic of the 2 of you, but you guys look so happy i couldn't help it =)) Cute couple k!! I'm happy fer ya tong <3!!

Immediately after was the dinner wit immediate family.. Went to The Dining Room at RTC.. Kinda posh i guess.. Where the main course is served in minute portions on ginormous plates and the appetizer is grass for you to eat forever. Haha. I loved the cake tho. Pics below!

I'll edit this entry later since no one will read it now anw. Sleepy