the color quiz...

it's quite true... !!

cher took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting n..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

siggghhh...

ohwells

lost my precious notes for my fic. just when i'd set my mind to finish the first 5 chapters this week, i realzied i completely lost my notes. GRRRR. very very very devastated. all my character bios and plot layouts and everything! sighh

official start of fitness month is on Wed 020507! Who wanna go Badminton wit me? SIYINGZI!! Badminton on Wed? CAn? Please dear? Haha can u be my fitness buddy? You're the best candidate le dear! Haha u live near enough =) unofficial start date was last Friday - bballed wit the Esprimere ppl - lta, darryl BRUDDER, ts and tong! =) funfunfun=) but my skills are rusty. needa brush up le. i miss my bball brudders (no math gang!)

oh yea forgot to mention tt exams are more or less over. i'm officially having my hols =) save for MGQ paper on Thurs, i'm free as a bird! =) so more meetup sessions available! =) meetup sessions wih sports as a focus will be given priority ranking =) yupyup so bring it on! =)

anw, been spending past few days hanging wit esprimere ppl and giving tuition. brother came back frm confinement week in BMT. sian. he's going back in tml.


Been watching Heroes!! ROCKS ROCKS ROCKS.


Alright blog more soon. Trying to re-plan/redo fic. Sigh

stuff..

ehh... had sth to blog abt.. forgot le


playing wheel of fortune over msn wit tong now. haha. we very support msn's silly msn games.. we like playing uno and wof over msn!

anw, a few weeks back val and i wanted to blog abt this - a list of redundant questions ppl ask! Here's the top 3:

TOP 3 REDUNDANT QUESTIONS PEOPLE ASK

1) Are you awake?
( LIKE DUH!!?!? You're expecting an answer if it's a no?)

2) Are you there?
(Again, I don't need to explain this)

3) BWAHAHA i forgot the third one and went to ask val this on msn. lemme show u how it went!

idon'tdareto [ spanking new song - Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder] says:
heyhey what were our redundant questions again? are you awake, are you there and?

idon'tdareto [ spanking new song - Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder] says:
i bloggin abt them now heh

ヴァレリー i'm trying to study. really i am! *looks longing at dvds* SIGH says:
wah

ヴァレリー i'm trying to study. really i am! *looks longing at dvds* SIGH says:
yes im awake

ヴァレリー i'm trying to study. really i am! *looks longing at dvds* SIGH says:
yes im here

ヴァレリー i'm trying to study. really i am! *looks longing at dvds* SIGH says:
OH

idon'tdareto [ spanking new song - Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder] says:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ヴァレリー i'm trying to study. really i am! *looks longing at dvds* SIGH says:
i cant really rmb

idon'tdareto [ spanking new song - Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder] says:
hahahahahha

ヴァレリー i'm trying to study. really i am! *looks longing at dvds* SIGH says:
haha

idon'tdareto [ spanking new song - Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder] says:
STUPID LAME SHIT

idon'tdareto [ spanking new song - Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder] says:
i'm gonna blog abt this

ヴァレリー i'm trying to study. really i am! *looks longing at dvds* SIGH says:
blog about what?

ヴァレリー i'm trying to study. really i am! *looks longing at dvds* SIGH says:
hahahaha

ヴァレリー i'm trying to study. really i am! *looks longing at dvds* SIGH says:
WA LAO


And true to my words, i did blog abt this. LOL.


More redundant shit questions are calling a person and asking "Is that you, Cherlynn?" and a lecturer asking a class "Any of you absent?" and calling a person then asking "What's your number?" etc! Hahaha. Tt day we had a helluva good time talking abt this. Forgot all our questions already but damn lame one. Like, seeing someone walk into a lamp post and asking, "Are you ok?" haha.


Hmms. Today marks the start of exams.. Will be so uber glad once exams are over! Today = Monday ya.. And today (23/4) is my dad's birthday! Had a nice cake at home. Yupps. In sch, joined the esprimere guys at student lounge as usual.. Hmm


Blog more later! haha. Wheel of Fortune calls! =)

理想情人。。。

哈哈！

阿福的blog已经描述了他们三个大男人喜欢在伴侣中看到什么characteristics...

ok i'll only blog partly in chinese when it will help me express my point k. haha =)


anw, i'm gonna blog abt the 5 characteristics (or more) i want in my guy =)

1) Physically - TALL!!! I quite tall leh, so a guy shorter than me cannot le la. Coz i'm into dependability, someone i can lean on, and the person gotta be taller than me then i can lean comfortably into his chest right???? =) And i like tan guys, who have funky hair and are rather built =)) Hehe. Gosh. Me drooling le. The face not too important. The look from far good can le. Best is tall until most of the time cannot see your face. Wahahahahaha. No la. You know why tall tan and muscular is good? Coz you will look fierce and strong. So your girl will feel v protected =)

2) Dependability - I want someone dependable! Someone who knows how to think for his future and is mature. Also, he has to look like he's in control of every situation.. Has to be sensible and all la. Just have to give the very 稳重 feeling lo.. Very steady, stable etc =) very 靠得住 hehe. Obviously coz I need someone to 靠 right? I carry a heavy burden as it is, good to have someone to sa jiao to =) 给我靠一靠！！ hee

3) Witty - Meaning funny but in the SMART way. Not toilet humor/sexual humor all the time thankyouverymuch. Must be able to make me laugh and laugh at me! =) Of course WITH me also la haha. But i know, it's quite easy to laugh at me. haha. Then of course must be quite smart =) I like brains - it's sexy!

4) 疼我！！ hahaha YUPP. Dun need to keep giving in. Just i dunno, occasionally do something sweet =) And must be willing to 靠 我, let me into his world =) Coz seriously, i think i can be a very good girlfriend. Ask my one n only ex. Wahahahaha. And all the other people whom i give advice to. I'm just so good. Wahaha.

5) Of course, must <3 me la =) No need to say one.


Other factors that are not a must but would help - good sense of style, good to family, get along well with my friends and family. IMPORTANT! Lollypop Kids should approve =) Lollypop kids include.. Err.. Full membership list later =) Anw, generosity would be good, and again i stress that looks are not v impt.. Haha. Consider the ppl i've "liked" before you'd know that my judgement of looks(Facial) is very very lenient. HAhahahaha. Anw, also must be able to let me trust him and also must trust me.. wah got a lot leh. But those 5 are basic ba.. hehe.

Who fulfills those requirements? Quan in Hana Kimi. WANGSHAOWEI fullstop. <3<3<3 Hehe. Anw recently watched an ep of Wangzibianqingwa on Channel U (it's repeating) and AHHH~~ Le sigh. SHAOWEI. SO CUTE! SIGH.


Okok so anw, LPK (Lollypop Kids) full membership! In case y'all dunno what LPK are, they're my close friends who belong in the elite "Cher's Close Friends" circle. These are ppl i consider my really good friends whom I will tell my probs to and always be there for =)

1)Val
2)Arh Ben
3)Tong
4)Suyee
5)Shui
6)Siying
7)Edna
8)Ann
9)Mad
10)Eve
11) Rahrah
12) Elves
13) Yarn
14) Linz
15)wenz
16) ganbee!
17) ahfu
18) lta
19) MICH!!!
20) Eunice!



Err.. Anyone i forgot? Anw yea this is the list updated as of 22 Apr 2007 lo.. Hehe. Who else who else? Hmmms.. Refresh my memory a bit k guys? =) LOVE!!


I'm feeling better le guys~


shaoweiii~~~ <3 =)

very nice song...

a few days back i saw the mtv for this SPANKIN NEW SONG off MTV... I didn't know Maroon 5's lead singer was so hot! A bit gay voice but woah HOT! The MTV for this new song - Makes Me Wonder, is awesome. He looks freaking hot =)

lyrics - Maroon 5 Lyrics

just in case the lyrics don't display, here they are:

Lyrics to Maroon 5 Makes Me Wonder

[Verse]

I wake up with blood-shot eyes

Struggled to memorize

The way it felt between your thighs

Pleasure that made you cry

Feels so good to be bad

Not worth the aftermath, after that

After that

Try to get you back

[Bridge]

I still don't have the reason

And you don't have the time

And it really makes me wonder

If I ever gave a f**k about you

[Chorus]

Give me something to believe in

Cause I don't believe in you anymore

Anymore

I wonder if it even makes a difference to try

(Yeah)

So this is goodbye

[Verse]

Got them resting in my head [?]

Decisions that made my bed

Now I must lay in it

And deal with things I left unsaid

I want to dive into you

Forget what you're going through

I get behind, make your move

Forget about the truth

[Bridge]

I still don't have the reason

And you don't have the time

And it really makes me wonder

If I ever gave a f**k about you

[Chorus 1 + 2]

Give me something to believe in

[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
Cause I don't believe in you anymore

Anymore

I wonder if it even makes a difference,

It even makes a difference to try

And it's over, hurt the feeling [?]

But I don't believe it's true anymore

Anymore

I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry

(Oh no)

So this is goodbye

[Breakdown]

I've been here before

One day a week

And it won't hurt anymore

You caught me in a lie

I have no alibi

The word is set on how to mean me [?]

Cause

[Bridge]

I still don't have the reason

And you don't have the time

And it really makes me wonder

If I ever gave a f**k about you

And I...and so this is goodbye

[Chorus 1 + 2]

Give me something to believe in

Cause I don't believe in you anymore

Anymore

I wonder if it even makes a difference,

It even makes a difference to try

And it's over, hurt the feeling [?]

But I don't believe it's true anymore

Anymore

I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry

(Oh no)

So this is goodbye

So this is goodbye, yeah (x 3)

(Oh no)

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as usual, italicized parts reflect what i feel. =)

today felt slightly better, sorry for pangseh-ing tong.. i just need that bit of time to myself to think and do some work and pei2 my family..

also forgot to mention a few days back - thanks edna=) that surprise msn msg really touched me =) I love you too girl =))

take care all~

thanks..

arh ben
shui
val
tong
sy
fu
lta

thanks for trying to talk/cheer me up etc

appreciate it

thanks shui babe *huggs* really really appreciate it. love you all a lot=)

more problems today. just give me one more day. one more day i swear i'll stop this nonsense.



shaowei~~~ =)

just a bit more..

replied to val's blog. some of the replies are applicable to all of you.




it's just that i've realized how much i keep to myself. and it's not for want of trying to let go. it's that whenever i try to bring something up, other people's problems seem to be so much more important than mine. just because mine is not a bgr problem, people think it's a small problem and just brush over it.

- the relationship between my brother and i is getting from bad to worse and i don't know what i did to deserve all this. as far as i know i've been a good sister - i have no idea what's wrong, and why this is all happening

- i'm stressed out by schoolwork because seriously i am not doing well and i know a lot of it is my fault but the thing is if i don't do well, i get a lot of trouble from my parents who will nag nag nag and scold and threaten to discontinue my studies etc.

i have a lot more personal problems that i just refuse to talk about and what and i know those 2 problems i listed above may seem insignificant or unimportant to a lot of people. but just because my problem isn't a bgr problem, or just because i don't talk about it and lament about it everyday doesn't mean that it's not a serious problem to me. i just push my problems aside and move on with life, so that i can continue being the "carefree" person. no one needs another person's problems to listen to. i'm sure everyone could do without listening to my problems. so i tell them only to people who seem willing, who don't have so many of their own problems

and this excludes you, suyee, tong, shui, and so many other people. all of you are besotted with your own problems. everyone is. and because i seem to be a problem-less person, or because i'm a good listener or what, everyone chooses to turn to me for their probs. and i tend to worry about my friends a bit. so my problems grow, but i won't let it show.


i don't know why. i've only recently discovered that i'm quite a feminist at heart. i like to appear strong. i like to do things that are typically deemed as "male" activities and excel at them. i never realized it but i'm a subconscious feminist. maybe tt's why i act strong all the time. then when the little girl in me, the one that's been suppressed, starts to show, i break down and cry like there's no tomorrow. it's really quite crazy.

chinese again

最近对自己感到很失望。。。

不知道自己到底在做些什么。明明是已经计划好要做的事情，最后还是没做到。人家对我的失望，实在难扛。。

只有四个字能形容现在的感触 － 流离失所。

不要替我烦恼。
也别问我好不好
让我安静地睡一觉
天亮了我会继续笑

心里的伤痛
没人能懂


就如我说的， 让我安静一下， 逃避一下。 我要透透气。

friends...

cher has been very short tempered lately


and would like to apologise to her two darling asses tong n sy. been flaring up at you all more often than i've ever done in my life. sorry darlings. i still love you all. but sometimes, i can't handle both of your problems at the same time. i'm really sorry darlings. i thought i was but i've just realized that i can't be superwoman/superfriend.

i think that the root of this problem is because recently (a few weeks back) i had kinda a bit of problems that i didn't let you all know. (i told shui, val and ann only i think..) or maybe i did but i didn't impress upon you guys the severity of the issue, so it was very quickly brushed over without concern. so with my problems laying the foundation, your problems quickly compounded and added to the weight and after awhile the cracks began to show and i spent many nights just tearing for no reason.

the reason for letting you all know all this is just so that you guys will understand why i've been flaring up at you 2 recently. hopefully you understand and don't take it to heart. i swear i'll try to get myself back to normal soon. promise.


cher's been feeling angsty lately

and she's realized that a lot of her friends are really kinda self-centred creatures. apart from val, i don't wanna name names coz val already knows it's her. anw, these friends are content to let loose all their problems but tend to linger over them, indulge in their self-pity etc. so that when i'm pouring out my problems, or attempting to, nothing gets in.

i don't even want to complain about this anymore. if cher can't be a good listener for her friends, then cher is nothing very much at all.



i've tried so hard to support all of you,
i guess i just can't

i think i need a break
let me be selfish for one day
please
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thanks arh ben for listening today. even though it was just a really short while in the taxi and at carl's junior, at least you listened. Today i rattled on and on about my problems and he even managed to pry out of me something that's been hurting me for awhile. Arh ben, thanks. I didn't know you had the same prob too. It's good to know that someone else understands. I thought it was only in my family that this happened. Everyone else seems to have such good relationships with their siblings if they have any. I dunno. But thanks dear, i had a good time today =) Sorry about all that money though. And all the food I wasted!

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blog more another time. must try to find my strong facade again.

lalala

hmm~

ohwells. dunno what to blog abt... spending lots of time wit esprimere ppl lately.. heh. thursday - lta's bday - 22 sabos for the 22 year old. Funfun. But kenna sabo-ed myself at Mr. Bean =( The silly video on youtube. Thank goodness i don't link wenfu. haha..

finally most of the assignments due are completed already. we're hurtling towards the end of this sem! i really can't wait. classes have been booked for nx sem already - CAME got the best classes! =) Heh. Thanks anita~ So we've got a slack sem comin' up! Yay. Well, considering that the rest of the unis will be having hols during our slack sem, i think it's not say very good la but at least it's better than a full sem!

was contemplating changing to taking music though. I miss the touch of my piano. Haven't tuned it in ages. My standard totally dropped to Grade 5 standard already la. And my sight-reading is totally -__-""

I MISS PIANOOOO~~

Sigh.


Aaanw.. Been busy taking up more tuition.. Thanks to peiwen, i've got 2 good lobangs, then my current student (T)'s friend wants me to give her tuition too. I feel bad coz i've turned down T and her family's other lobangs a few times already. Haha. They keep asking me to tutor more ppl =( Feel so bad. But nx sem i shd be able to handle more la..

Anw, to understand what I'm like as a tutor, here's a sample of the top 3 things i say during lessons:

1) "Hurry up, don't waste time and do your work!"
2) "Shut up and do your work."
3) "I'm not going to talk to you till you finish this page"

Haha so sad right?? Hahahhahaha. Other common things I say are "Stop stoning and do your work!", "How was your ting xie?", "You do finish this page i give you a short break"

Common things my students say. Top 3:

1) "Teacher, did you watch High School Musical?" (WTF is with this show? All my kids are obssessed with it and have asked me this question 30 times each at least!!)
2) "Teacher, what time we finish?"
3) "Teacher can i have a break?"

Other common things they say "Teacher, I'm so tired" (My response is usually "Shut up and do your work" or "What can I do about that?"

Haha. Surprisingly, with such a horrid teacher like me, funnily enough my students have become clingy. I'm their longest teacher to date - they've fired all their prev teachers coz they "don't like" the teachers. All 3 of them leh! Funny.


Anyways, I've just taken up what I like to think of as my contribution to society - charity tuition service. Heh. Coz my student from the school i used to teach at asked if i can continue helping them with Eng (last year i spent quite some time out of work helping them every weekend with their Eng) So yea, this is my charity case - helping out my ex 3/9 and 3/4-ers wit their eng.. Haha. They now going to take O levels le, seeing them take the initiative and having the eagerness to actually come for this makes me feel very gratified. So yea =) Happy!



Alright. Tml going to some talk wit Arh Ben! Wooh. Haven't met the wolf in ages!! Hehe. Hopefully it'll be fun! =) And hopefully i get some really good tips! Haha.


Man. anw. back to youtube to see more of my dear shaowei =) He's so frigging funny n cute! Le Sigh~ yummyumm!

wanted!

did you know tt my shaowei is/was looking for me??

hahaha j/k la i sound so freaking deranged. anw

Click here for part 1
and here for part 2

So super funny! He totally act seh at the end, then bhb and all. Sigghhhh so cute. hee

ktv today wit tong sy and ts.. school before tt.. lessons as per normal.. met lta and ahfu in student lounge for a bit. yupyup. dinner at mac's

etc

blog another time la! gotta type out my Executive Summary!

siggghhhh~

how could you not love my shaowei?

http://youtube.com/watch?v=cwf-Zkbrfg4

sigh sigh~ so cute, hot, and FUNNY. sigh sigh sigh~

hehe had some fun today, wore a beautiful dress from MSC!! =) people liked it! My top ytd was also from MSC! People loved it too! Hee. Just tt i kept zao-genging ytd coz forgot to wear the tube inside lol.

i <3 my shaowei! sigh~

*blog more later~

so damn shagged..

grr...

am so tired.. but i have some thoughts that i wanna vent now before i forget!

Awhile back I talked abt friends and true friends and all. Just wanna talk about someone who really irks the shit out of me. This person is so fake, he/she might as well go be a wax statue la. With an inflated ego somemore. My goodness. Anw, i think the truth about this person will come to light sooner or later, so before anything happens, i wanna state here first:

When something happens, don't fucking jump to conclusions and assume I'm the one who spread rumours or badmouthed you or something. Because if you say that, you don't fucking know me well enough. I don't do the initiate rumours or badmouth someone thing. I sin enough as it is, I don't need to have more sins to admit to during confession. In fact, in the case of this person, I've actually tried to change ppl's points of view and say that "he/she is a nice person what" all the time because really, i felt that this person was not all that bad. The people who were trying to convince me of this kept saying i was too naive or stuff like that. Then finally when there was hard evidence of this person backstabbing me, I gave in and started to believe that he/she might not be as nice as I thought. But after awhile, I started thinking he/she is nice again. And I still think this person can be nice. But, I dunno la, something's really starting to give and I think all the blame is gonna be pushed to me and I don't wanna die a wrongful death. So i'll say it once again. I WAS ON YOUR SIDE ALL THE WHILE. Until you decided to take a wrong step and backstab me. So when all the shit starts raining on your head, don't blame me. Blame yourself. Then again, even I could not convince them (when I still thought you were nice) that you were nice.. So really, something about you just does this to people. Maybe you should question yourself where it is you've gone wrong.


Ok enough about this issue. And NO i'm not gonna say AT ALL who this person is until anything happens. But don't worry UB readers, it's nothing happening in UB at all. Remember? I don't give a fuck about UB stuff? Yupps. So UB ppl you can continue to badmouth me backstab me, bitch about what I wear, bitch about my friends etc. I have five words for you: I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. So maybe you shouldn't either. Really quite irked by some bitches in UB and their loose mouths. It's probably as loose as their saggy vaginas - saggy from overuse. (OMG me and my pottymouth! Nvm, I'm sure I'll survive. And yes i know i'm bitching here but really, some ppl NEED to be bitched about) I don't really think there are many bitches in UB - you only become a bitch when I actually get to hear of the mean stuff you say about myfriends/myself. In this particular person's case the woman bitched about my friend. And i'm so pissed off. Haha. Yea yea this entry'll probably trigger more badmouthing about me. Who gives a bloody fuck.

So what if you're hot and have (some) brains? And your complexion's probably flawless and your hair is dandruff-free! You can go screw all the hot guys you want and die of an STD! Wheeee~

Alright *scolds self* Enough bitching, girl.

i'm very OVER this issue, but i think some ppl need to be reminded:

I AM MY OWN PERSON. Nobody can claim to own me apart from God and my parents. They have the right to judge what I wear and do and when they do, I respect it.

I have also given the right to criticize me to people I call my close friends - aka the Lollipop Kids. They know who they are.

Apart from them, the rest of you can just shut the fuck up about what you think about me. Thanks. But if it makes you happy, you can jolly well go ahead =) Just don't bitch about me as if I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm not an imbecilic idiot (much like you are). I know i have a bad complexion, bad teeth, ugly eyes, fat face, bad hair, figure going out of shape (in fact it's already out of shape), thick makeup, loud clothes, loud character ETC. Whatever you are gonna say about me, please find something new to say, OR you can just go "she is so fat! when is she gonna go exercise?" instead of saying "omg don't u think she's fat? why is she so fat?" i mean, like yea.

Aaaand, when people in general do weird things right, I'm VERY SURE there's a valid reason behind it, so please don't start bitching just because your vagina itches and moving your mouth helps soothe the itch. For eg: Wearing ugly loose clothes - hello? I have a dress code to adhere to. Wearing shades: lasik surgery, doc's orders tt i wear shades all day.
and the list of reasons goes on. So really, please like, grow a brain, or if that's too difficult, go fuck yourself or something. The world could do with less of the likes of you.
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On a less antagonistic note, I'm gonna blog abt what I did today! =)

Slack day today coz no lessons. Woke up at 2pm coz slept super late ytd. Supposed to meet sysweets in sch at 130pm to give her the receipt for funds but yah too late. So in the end after much hemming and hawing i decided to cancel one of my tuitions and made my way down to the other tuition at about 4pm.. Then halfway through sy begged me to go down to sch ahaha so ok lor, change course and went down.. Wearing the super fug exco polo tee btw, might i add haha. Yup then met her then waited heckuva long time for her lesson to be over, then finally met her hc n gary then passed her the receipt then hc left first then after tt waited wit gary and sy for gary's friend.. I think also coz at first gian the free ride.. Then after calling tuition kid's house for many times without them picking the phone up, I decided to go home first so told em i didn't need the ride la (it really wasn't on the way in the first place) so left sy n gary! Then on the way home finally contacted tuition kid's mom so changed tuition time to 730pm and made plans to join the Esprimere overnight studying guys at Beauty World Mac's..

After having dinner at home, came out and pia-ed tuition. Haha was quite funny, halfway through tuition i went down to help the girl buy some food, she was so hungry and refused to eat anything else and the other ppl in the house (maid taking care of baby, younger sis too young) couldn't go buy so I told the girl to do some work then went down. Then at the place there right, ran into a bunch of my ex-colleagues!! They were at the pub there lah! So super cool =) Oh and at this point i must mention tt today was a day of coincidences for me! Hahas. Anw yea this was the first coincidence! Running into my ex-colleagues =) Ok then after tt brought the food up then nearing the end of tuition there was some (melo)drama about a gigantic butterfly that had flown into the house and the girls refusing to let me use their toilet. Haha. Damn funny. Anw very pleased with this particular tuition kid. She's improved a lot, work-wise and attitude-wise =)) Yay!

So anw after tuition, pia-ed down to Beauty World. Ok so when I reached the bus-stop outside the tuition kid's house, I saw this guy smoking rings at the bus stop. Ok the rings bit was cool but HELLO!!?!??! BUS STOP+SMOKING = KENNA FINE+KILL CHERLYNN (by passive smoking) Yah so I was kinda pissed la. Then the bus came and we all boarded the bus. Then me and Mr I-Can-Smoke-Rings got off at the same stop and crossed the fucking same overhead bridge (quite scary incidents involving some big bengs happened also) Then i turned right after getting off the bridge while Mr I-am-so-cool turned left i dunno for what. Yah. So anw yepps went to the Macs and met LTA and AhFu.. LTA was very hardworking! *applause*. AhFu, on the other hand.. Tsk. Fidgety and restless etc! Haha but the 2 of them were all like "The night is still young!" ok la. I just pia-ed my 217 project.. Not bad, managed to complete quite a bit and ate a bit too! Heheheheh. Halfway through LTA's gf arrived and he went to accompany her to eat supper. Then after pretty long (at around 1130pm?) Prez TS finally arrived. AhFu had moved over to the power outlet to use his lappie so I was guarding our tables n doing my work la. Then when TS turned up the first thing he said was "You also wearing this shirt arh?" then i realized he was wearing the exco tee also. Kaoz. SO SUAY!!!! The worst thing is, I look like fuck in it but he looked quite okay in it =( Bloody sexist shirt. Oh and this is coincidence No 2! Then after tt Skyped wit sy awhile via AhFu's lappie! =)

Anw yea then I had to leave at 1145pm (bloody curfew) then took 67 to CCK interchange then topped up farecard, then took 307 home. THEN RIGHT, guess what. When I got on the 67, guess who did I see on the bus? MR I-CAN-SMOKE-RINGS. Knn. Like dunno where he came from la. Yah suay. Coincidence No 3! THEN THEN THEN! At the stop after the stop i got on, I looked out the window and saw LTA and his gf!!! Coincidence No 4!! I shan't describe what they were doing at the bus stop la ok? =) Yah so anw 4 coincidences from 930pm onwards. Suay day. And i was so drowsy coz of my medicine somemore pfft.


Kk enough blogging! TIRED! Needa sleep! Tml got tuition! PS HELLO ELVES!!! =) Alrighty ciao y'all

hellooooo~~

ok ok 've got SO SO MUCH to blog abt!!

Kk let's start wit Mon. Apart from the gigantic retail therapy at night... Morn i went for my Lasik 2nd Review at Paragon Medical... And I met a kindred spirit! Anw i really got to tui1 jian4 The Lasik Surgery Clinic.. A lot of chiobus!!!! All the optometrists and receptionists and interns all so super chio =) It's enough to turn me lesbian! Hahahahaha. Anw, the best thing is they're all so super nice =) But anwww... Yea i met a kindred spirit! After scanning my cornea and leading me back to the waiting room, this lady(one of the optometrists i think) told me "I have keloids too!" Then i was like SO SUPER STUNNED!!!!

In case some of you out there dunno right.. Keloids are the things on my shoulder blades, upper arms and there's one on my chest. Yepps. Here's the Wiki definition of them:

"A keloid is a special type of scar which results in an overgrowth of tissue at the site of a healed skin injury. Keloids are firm, rubbery lesions or shiny, fibrous nodules and can vary from pink to flesh-colored or red to dark brown in color. A keloid scar is benign, noncontagious and usually accompanied by severe itchiness, sharp pains and changes in texture. In severe cases, it can affect movement of skin. For some, keloids are a cosmetic problem, although it can still be very upsetting, especially for younger patients"

Funny, i didn't know they were thought to be cancerous! haha. Anw yea tt's what my keloids are! For more info check out wiki - Keloids!

I inherited em from my poppa.. He has them all over his body. So anw yea this lady said that to me then we had a nice little discussion abt it.. She went for the injection treatment tt my parents were talking abt making me undergo, and she said it wasn't effective.. The laser treatment is also not effective. Sighs. Haha. Anw, she was saying she wished her keeloids were more like mine - mine are pinkish and smaller than hers.. Hers are red/brown and rather big! Mann. It's sad.

Anw like Wiki says, there's no known treatment that's 100% effective against keloids that have already formed for awhile so we gotta wait i guess. Apparently the steroid injections are a good idea but are painful to the extent tt people over the age of 16 need to under go general anasthesia to take the injections and that there will be pain as the anasthetic wears off. Bleahh

Right now i'm checking out the page for the Keloid Support Group. It's awesome =) I didn't know there were so many ppl who had them!! I thought my dad and I were like the only people in Singapore with Keloids. So yea!! It was really awesome to meet Gwen(the lady at the Lasik place) and now find that really I'm not alone and my keloid case isn't so bad!!! =))

So please stop staring at my keloids and thinking that i'm so horribly disfigured and fugly or anything. Yea. I have bad skin, so? You have a sucky life. Go fuck yourself.

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Anw, Monday night went for tuition, met val, she passed me the chocs qisheng bought for me. WHEEEE~~ Free chocs!! Hehe. thanks qisheng!! I really love it =) Heh. YUMMMM~ Then yah i went on my MADD shopping spree..


Tuesday i didn't have tuition and I wanted to complete my interview for com 217 project so I asked val to join me and pia-ed down to NJ.. Hahas. Lots of things happened! Meeting all my fave ppl - WHITBY!! And also saw dio and other teachers.. Interviewed Mark Lo.. Which was quite funny.. Then val and I went down to her house.. I wanted to go IMM to shop mah. Then decided to go down to Bukit Panjang plaza to shop instead since she needed to go to her dad's place to pick up her jap stuff.. Then in the end they went off for dinner. Bleahh~

Wednesday! Was just a busy day with me going for all lessons and tuitions! Save for meeting wit marisa and tong at 1030am to 1230nn... Nothing much happened heh.

Thurs! YTD!! Hahahahaha LOOONG STORY. I gtg tuition le so will blog abt this later.

Anw, esprimere forum has been v happening! =)


Ok really gotta go. Blog later! Ciao ppl!

retail therapy for WHAT?

lolol

like OMFG i just had a MASSIVE shopping session.

went out wit val just now to Lot 1 after our tuition at our common tuition place la bought a fuck lot of stuff!! Just today alone (including earlier in school) i bought:

Popular
The Neil Humphreys Book (Final Notes from a Great Island)
5 pens and an eraser
($14.90+$9.10)

Lunch/Munch
3 cheezy sausages (1 for bday girl prissy and 2 for myself)
KitKat - 1 bar
Chocolate milk tea
Apple Juice and 2 sticks of karage chicken
($3+$1.30+$.150+$0.90+$1.80)


From Watson's
Applicators
Make up sponges
The Wakilala underarm cleaning thing
my Ginvera exfoliating gel
Deodorant
(TOTAL: $52)

Then from BHG (previously Seiyu)
2 triumph bras
($45.20)

Dinner
ShihLin Mee Sua (w/o oysters!)
Ya Kun Kaya toast (shared wit val)
($3.20)


I think there's more but i've forgotten!
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Ok ok all that was typed ytd. Anw, today was yet another eventful day!

argh. just put this up first la. haha. so tired

ONS SIA!

haha. make of the title what you will


anw, haven't blogged in ages AGES!!

Well, mostly i've got only the chalet stuff to update =) Ok on Sunday I rebonded my hair... Yupps.. Then went for gathering at er yi's house, managing to complete some of my 225 there since i got there early.. Then Monday went to school for Comms, then headed down to chalet!!!

Talking about the chalet - GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME IT WAS SO FUCKING FUN!!!! I can't remember when was the last time I had so much fun in my life hahas. Like sy said, it's as if esprimere is one big happy family =) Of course, it helps that tong was there =) Hehe. Will talk abt tong laters~ Anw, yea! It was freakin awesome. Sy, tong and ts did a lot of pre-chalet work, getting the food and stuff. On Thursday tong sy and I went to check out food prices at giant - damn shaggifying! Super super tiring! Anw, then tong and I did a lot of the paperwork stuff like prog sheet, food list, exco duties, attendance list, calling up & inviting ppl etc and dbl chking and confirming attendance and all~ Woohoo, sounds like a crap load of work. Oh and planning games, which was basically us koping game ideas frm Tian Cai Chong Chong Chong! Haha. The night before the chalet i basically pia-ed the Shen Bu Zhi Gui Bu Jue materials plus tong and i had a ball of a time scratching our heads thinking of how to trick ppl for Tiao Tiao Tempo! Hehehehehe =) Haha. Thankfully all the hard work paid off and the people enjoyed themselves! Haha everytime I plan something, it's obviously knowing that people enjoyed themselves that's the most important =) So anw, KUDOS to Esprimere exco 2006 as well as exco 2007! =)

Anw, more on chalet stuff - so the first night, everyone heard tt our prev prez Ah FU was gonna terrorize us in the middle of the night with some odd plan of his, so everyone was scheming amongst themselves how to prevent him frm entering. Haha to be honest i was kinda pissed that everyone was so -not- sporting la. I mean, amongst us girls. Haha just ask tong n sy, i kept scolding them abt not cooperating hahahaha. I guess i'm an adventure person ba =) But anw, first night was bbq nite! Alumni members as well as current members (but rarely-seen ones) turned up for this event! Heh. After some food (really fantastic curry frm tong and some beehoon frm sy! and of course bbq food but i didn't makan any of those lol), we carried on wit the games - UBER UBER FUN! =) I'm glad to note that everyone was uber sporting and cooperative =) Lots of gorgeous pics thanks to pro-photog Gary! Though I look super fug in those pics, i think the contentment I felt was written all over my face haha. Looking at the pics of the other ppl also cracks me up! Just so freakin hilarious! =) Anw, then after the games we all retreated into our rooms. I was unable to sleep coz well, sleeping arrangements weren't all tt good, plus also not sure whether or not ah Fu was gonna come kaqiao us. OH WAIT! Forgot to mention a very important detail! Ah Fu invited his 2 friends Jessica and.. wait for it.. SHIRLEEN!!! Hahaha. YEA! And they were supposed to be his spies for the night to infiltrate the girls and force us to open the doors in the middle of the night tt kinda thing!

So anw yea I was having a ball of a time calling SHIRLEEN and saying hi and stuff. Hahas. So fun!! Same name, diff spelling =) It was fantastic. Heh

So anw yea then coz of not-too-good sleeping arrangement, i went out to attempt to sleep on the sofa, but the friggin handrest was too hard and too high! So i heard shirleen and jessica in Teru and Tai An's room so I went over to seek refuge! Then in their room, they were playing their guitars and singing, then I wasn't able to sleep coz they kept singing wrongly lol then i had to get up and sing correctly for them LOL. No la. Just all fun and games. Haha. Yah so cldn't sleep. THEN ah fu, at 5am, FINALLY got away from the mahjong table nx door and came over to ask if jess and shirleen wanted to continue with the plans for the night. Then they kept hemming and hawing so no go that night la! Then ah fu decided to strum UBER loudly on his guitar and sing silly obnoxious loud songs with lyrics like "KI LAI LIAO! KI LAI LIAO!" Super funny la! but wah liew! Wah kao. How to sleep like tt. Hahas! Somemore the next day I wanted to wake up early and pia down to sch can!? So in the end i gave up and went out to the sofa again, this time bringing wit me 2 towels koped frm Tai an and Teru's room. Finally fell asleep at ard 6+am, woke up when Marisa tugged at my feet at 830am. SUPER SHAGGED. Found out tt huiching wasn't going to school so no ride to tag along, so I bathed and went down to sch.

After sch tt day, went straight back to chalet again. Had lots of fun cycling, visiting the Aranda CC wit Litong-jie, our newly acquainted friend - she's the auntie who runs the convenience store at Aloha Loyang =) Now she's one of our kang taos. Hehe. She's so uber uber nice! On the first day she gave tong& i this free big bowl of chicken mushroom soup tt she made herself. OMG it was FREAKING DELICIOUS. AMBROSIA SIA!!! Wah seh. Anw yea then the next day she brought us over to Aranda to see see. Haha. Anw this was my first time riding the 2-ppl bike leh. A bit stressful being in front heh. Anw, excessive cycling tt day caused my bum to almost rupture hahaha. Blue-black everywhere and blistered hands! OUCH! And worst thing is - it caused me to miss my bike tremendously =( SIGH.. Can still remember the day my bike was stolen. And my dad decided not to buy me a new one. (There are still 2 more bikes in my house la but wtf the mountain bike is my bro's (since MY mb was stolen) and the other one is the low-rider kinda bike, not shiok one)

Anw, enough waxing nostalgic.. So during aftnn cycling, the asses got slightly lost coz of tong's insistence tt we take what wenfu declared to be the "da4 lu4 shortcut".. We got TERRIBLY LOST. Cycled all the way to Pasir Ris drive 3 and the train station etc! Hahahahahhahahahas. Dunno la. Anw yea then Aranda then went back to chalet for our Steamboat dinner! =) K then after dinner we cycled a bit then played Shen Bu Zhi Gui Bu Jue then we went out for cycling! Night cycling! Haha then after we all jumped on the bandwagon then we realized that it was in ahfu's plan all along to get us to go night cycling! It was, apparently, a build-up to his zheng3ren2xing2dong4 tt night!!! Wah kao! So we all went cycling to some haunted locations in the vicinity, but save for Lucas's weird name-calling incident, we didn't have many weird things happen.. Eventually we went to cycle ard the park, and I managed to sit at the back of the 2-person bike for once!!! Wah! First time sia! And it's damn good coz the stress on ur bum is not as bad as being on the mbs! Haha. But suay is that I had to sit behind either Wenfu or Tai An, both of whom had distinct BO after sweating so much hahahahha. I was complaining and complaining la! And then ahfU decided to threaten to fart!! Hahaha. He and his obssession wit farting! Always say wanna fart in my face! Bleah

Yepps so after night cycling, wenfu carried out his plan. Us girls were shut in one room while the guys were shut in another. Then we were sort of briefed on the night's activities - Mission X! Apparently we were captured by enemies and had to devise certain codes with each other and make sure we completely trust each other and everything! Tell you, it sounded so exciting! We plan plan plan, codes a bit complex somemore hahahahahhahahahaha I think we were all thinking got to go and complete several missions and turn our backs on our teammates etc! Y'know like night hike wit torches and backpacks that kinda stuff. In the end it was some blindfolded walk in a caterpillar formation all over the Aloha Loyang compound wahahhaha. But it was fun anw =) They kept feeding us weird food and splashing water on us. ICE COLD water. Hahas. But fun!

Anw then we got back and had the mini-handover ceremony and a sorta debrief thing =) Then limbor cooked for us!!! Delicious nia~ (Btw in case you're getting confused - wenfu = ahfu = ah hock = limboonhock = limbor, capisce? All these names refer to ONE person. Later you think chalet very happening got dunno how many thousand ppl lol) Oh in total the people who stayed over all 3 nights amounted to around, 10? More or less la. Tt's why in the end not enough space to sleep also hehe.

Shan't talk abt Wed le. Haha

Anws from the chalet experience - I've discovered a lot of stuff. I've realized that i've got some really true friends that I can trust with all my life. For eg during the "planning time" of Mission X, tong and I knew that we could trust each other no matter what. I know that I can trust tong wit my life! =) And anw, tt got me to think about the friends I have and who I could trust enough to place my safety in their hands! And here is a list!

Tong
Arh Ben
Val
Linz
Shui
Ann


Ok ok a short list only la coz I was thinking of it and I realized tt i basically trust the majority of my friends, just tt the ppl listed above are ppl I really really really trust and I know i can count on them, y'know? I wanted to put siying in too but dunno leh. Haha. XYZ you hear me? I dunno leh!? Wanna convince me a bit!? Hahahahs.

Anw on Wed teru was sending the north-west ppl home, which was me ahfu and lucas... Then I had to sit between the 2 big guys at the back seat coz teru had to pick up his sis la. Then I dunno i was just thinking thinking and I realized tt, (no special meaning to this la pls) some ppl, I really have complete and utter faith in their characters. Like ah fu. It's like, the feeling I get is tt he's a nice guy through and through! And he knows how to think and watch out for the safety of others, in other words he's very you3 fen1 cun4. Another person I feel is a very nice guy (frm Esprimere) is Tingfeng. Very very nice! No ulterior motives tt kinda feeling y'know. Other ppl whom i feel are nice - LTA is actually rather nice haha. Even though sometimes he can be rather crude, i feel that he's generally a nice person! TS is also another nice guy. But ts is a bit ahda ahda. Hahahahaha. Teru - generally a nice friend, in fact, a good friend, but tends to make us feel that he has motives for doing things. Teru i know you'll feel offended or what when I say this, but this is really how we feel la. You are nice as a friend, but sometimes we feel tt u do things wit motive!! And if you know that you do do things for reasons that are not so generous, then dun feel offended coz we're just pointing out facts.

Anw most of my guy friends are my guy friends for some ulterior motive or another -

Kor and I got close coz of.. well shall I not say

ER! I don't think i have any other guy friends! Hahahahaha. Oh junyi(di) and I got close.. Long ago.. Haha kinda drifted le. So no count..

Arh Ben and I are close - no ulterior motive in this friendship. Tt's why i know we can trust each other. Heh. thanks ben - i know you read this silently =) I MISS YOOOUU~~~ Hehe.


Since we're doing shoutouts, lemme shoutout to MICH - OMG GIRL! I haven't heard from you in freaking AGES!!! Pls meet up soon can? I miss you v bad!!

Yarn - hey girl! I miss chatting wit you and we need to go out properly once ok?

Val - I got ur letter today sweetie! Writing a reply ASAP! =)

XYZ - I MISS YOU!!

Sysweets - heh. just in case you thought i wasn't gonna mention you - hey dearie =) I've realized tt i've been scolding you very much recently abt ur pessimism and whatnot, I guess I just find it difficult to understand why you give up on yourself so easily. Maybe it's coz I don't know how it feels like to be in your shoes. Maybe if I were you I'd react the same way or maybe even worse. But I want you to know that you have a whole bunch of friends who care for you and will be behind you all the way no matter what you want to do - only if it's going to be good for you! If you can feel our love for you, then hopefully you can convert some of that into love for yourself=) You're beautiful, just like the (healthy) people you admire, maybe even more so than them! So please dear, learn to love yourself. Be strong *huggs* PS are you running out of Cheressence yet? Tell me k! I make refill quick quick! ;)

Everyone and anyone else. Laters~