Wednesday, January 31, 2007

ssshhh..

was wondering whether or not to open up a new (private) blog to talk abt what i feel now but.. dun think there's a use.

i've realised i've finally achieved d ability to not care what ppl think about me at all. What those nonsense people think, I mean. There are more than enough people like them in the world, i just treat them as yet another bunch of parasites.

Anw, that's not what I wanted to talk about

Anyone who knows me really well will know my main problem with bgr now. My philosophy, you might call it. I dunno if it's a by-product of the whole melvin thing, but I know I have a very strong auto-defense mechanism when it comes to affairs of the heart.

Simply put, I just don't want to get hurt anymore

Therefore, i have barriers surrounding my heart, gates that leap up at the slightest sign of trouble, shutting my heart out from external influence. This makes it impossible for me to really like someone unless I feel more or less ready to. Which has resulted in many many fleeting crushes over the past 2-3 years already. Apart from melvin, I really didn't focus my attention on any ONE person, and true enough, I didn't get hurt.

What actually happens is that in a typical social setting (work, school etc), I'll probably have my "crush" or "eye-candy" or "target" or whatever and do nothing whatsoever about it. If it happens that I get to know this particular person/these people, I either become just very good friends with them (to the extent that it's impossible b/w us) or I start becoming very dao and ignore them completely, creating a divide that's impossible to cross. Maybe it stems from awkwardness or uneasiness, but this is something I do on auto-gear already.

However, if nothing happens for us to become close or what, I'll just move on to the next "target" with commendable ease. This "fleeting fleeting" thing is uber convenient - prevents me from
getting hurt at all, and absolves me of all responsibility regarding that other person. Of course, there'll be a part of me that becomes very empty after awhile from all this, but hey, you have to agree it's better than getting your heart ripped into pieces over and over again.

Aaanyways, my point in bringing that up is coz recently, I've been persuaded to break out of my cycle and actually let down some barriers. Persuasive friends with good-intentions, they've managed to get me to let my guard down - though not completely. To be honest, I'm still guarding my feelings like a dog would its master. Though I've conceded some things lately, some other facts cannot be denied - all my personal problems (about my self-image, about security etc) that have dogged me till now are persistent baggage that can't be flung away. The thing is that, the more I reveal, the more I feel vulnerable. It's like, if I admit to things, I can't take that admission back. So I have to be very careful what I admit to. You have to agree it puts me in a super vulnerable position if I agree/admit to anything.


Maybe it's this desire for security that makes us passive. We're all afraid of being on the losing end, so we'll never concede or stuff like that.

The thing is, I'm wondering if I've already let my guard down too much.

Maybe I shouldn't even have paused to watch. I shouldn't even have invested anything more than just a fleeting interest. Coz I have a feeling I'm about to get hurt again.


Prevention is better than cure - i'm gonna nip this whole thing in the bud. Save myself the only way I know how.



I've got to get out of here

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

tie-ups

alright, just been reminded of the quiz tml, so hafta make this a quick one and rush off to study!

was just doing some leisure reading =) it's awesome to have time like tt to just read and relax.. no one to oblige, nothing to take up my time =) i'm really a loner at heart!!

yupps. playing the game "kudos" really made me see how methodical life is - how if you just do more of a certain action, you become skilled in that aspect but kinda lose out on others. How reading can up your culture and iq, how hanging out with people ups your confidence and lowers your loneliness, how your work is really what governs your emotions, how hard it is to keep human relations going, how the best jobs require the best people and so much more. Kudos is a really eye-opening game.

So I was just reading to further my general knowledge.. Non-fiction books nia! First time.

Went to Lot 1 after school today (after long chit-chat session wit CAME) wit Val.. Did some shopping(bought some nice n sweet stuff for suyeesweets n tong and my tuition kids!), and scoured the Library for books for me to read! I lugged 8 books home(must take advantage of the 8 books thing lehh!) including one (yes, just one) non-fiction book on medicines, and 7 other fiction titles of my favorite genre - crime thriller/psycho thriller and one of the 7 books was a romance novel, i think. So just before I realised there was a test tml, I was reading the book Suyeesweets lent me (it's non-fiction too! and very enlightening.)

Anws, quick recap of how the prev days went!
Sat: the kbox-movie-arcade-novenasquarevelocity-j8-neoprints outing wit Teru and Suyeesweets! First went to Kbox TP to duh, K.. Haha. Teru - ahem. Try harder lah. Think coz ur range is just too narrow, so many songs cmi, but work on it mann. Range is something tt can be expanded. Trust me, my range used to be quite small. Now what do you think of my range? LOLOL. Super bhb of me. Then we hung ard TP area, then decided we wanted to watch movieee.. Then had long fight abt what movie to watch coz silly sugarsweets wanted to watch Happy Birthday coz it was Fann Wong's birthday tt day.. She's an uber-Fann-fan la. Hahas. But the new fannwong/jackneo movie looks pretty good =) Will watch it! =) Anw, i wanted to watch one of the thrillers (Ghost tunnel, Death Note 2 etc) and Teru was more on my side lol. So we ended up watching KungFu mahjong! Wheeee~ Hahas. Funny show =) Enjoyed it. Then after tt, what wit sugar wanting to have PepperLunch and me wanting to take neoprints, we decided tt we'd go down to novenasquare(since there was pepperlunch there) and check out Velocity and Square2 as well.

Anw to cut a long story short, we had neoprints taken, cam-whored a fucklot and had a freaking delicious pepperlunch!(for dinner) =) Heh. Yahh. Then at J8 we had a nice treat from Teru - Swensen's Banana Crumble!! Super delicious, sinfully good mann =)) YUMMM.. Then super tired by the end of the day and had to drag my fucking heavy self all the way home~~~ Grr.

Sun - slack day! Went for tuition and then did my reading at Church! Then my parents picked me up and we went to my Uncle's house for gathering! Hahas. Slackie. Then spent the whole night talking to sugar(cupcakehoneypie) till like 430!!?!?

(wooh, just finished editing evy's mistake-riddled essay. hahah tiring sia!)

Mon - school! Er. I think i missed all of it. WOKE UP LATE NIA. Thanks to the until-430am-phone-convo. Wahaha. Went for tuition at 4pm. Then went home. Wooh haha.

Tues! - Is tt today? Yupps. Hahas. Went sch, had lessons blah blah blah. Rehman said some stuff abt self-concept and self esteem today tt really struck the core of my probs.. Will talk abt them here soon. Then hung wit CAME for lunch and chitchat (after UGC). Oh yah. met sugar and hc and liwen real quickly before UGC. Hehe. Then.. yah lor.. Blogged about it up there liao.

Crap. Forgot what else i wanted to blog abt le - see la!


Think when i know what I want to thought-blog abt I'll blog again. Off to study comms now! It's org comm right? Not interpersonal right?!? Grr

And sugar's supposed to msg me leh.. =( She must be asleep le LOL

Sunday, January 28, 2007

sing your heart out!

Just some songs that kinda bear relevance to stuff right now..

Not necessarily how I feel, but relevant..

First up, my fave member of my faveboyband BLUE has a message for us...

Jump by Lee Ryan

Jump by Lee Ryan
_________________________________________________
There is no reason to be far apart
We should be two sides of one beating heart,
So don’t be scared to let me love you,
We’re standing on the edge of something else,
Just count to ten and let go of yourself,
Somehow we’ll get by, we’re sky high,
So baby wont you...

Jump,
Take that leap of faith,
Take that leap with me,
We can make it if you just believe,
Girl you’ll never feel more alive than,
When you and I are skydiving

We know that life was never meant to last,
So who cares if we’re going way too fast,
Let’s make the best of what life brings us
There’s no such thing as reaching up too high,
Why can’t we build our castles in the sky,
Run from the rooftops, we won’t stop,
Baby come on...

Jump,
Take that leap of faith,
Take that leap with me,
We can make it if you just believe,
Girl you’ll never feel more alive than,
When you and I are skydiving
Jump,
Even if we fall, even if we break,
Tell me it’s not worth the chance you take,
To know that for a while we were flying,
You and I skydiving,
Jump

It’s a cold world, full of cold places,
Full of people, wearing two faces,
You’re a sure sign, of what could be,
I can go anywhere if you’re with me...

Jump,
Take that leap of faith,
Take that leap with me,
We can make it if you just believe,
Girl you’ll never feel more alive than,
When you and I are skydiving
Jump,
Even if we fall, even if we break,
Tell me it’s not worth the chance you take,
To know that for a while we were flying,
You and I skydiving,
Jump
__________________________________________________________________________________


And a new song by P Diddy featuring Christina Aguilera - Tell Me

Diddy:]
Can you feel me
Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it
ooh yeah
On the dance floor
Yeah yeah yeah
Lets play a game
On the dance floor
(Oh yeah)
Yeah yeah yeah

Let's play a game
Let's pretend for a second
You don't know who I am or what I do
Let's just put it to the side
I can feel your heart beating
I can hear you breathing
Look into your eyes
Trying to see into your mind
See into your soul
See, no limits to the levels
Me and you can go
When it's me, I take control
But it's something about you
That makes me wanna change
I like the way you dancing
And the way you play the game
I like the way you take away the pain
The way you tell me that you want it
Not saying a thing
The way you got me going
Got me going outta brains
I see us going at it
Going in and out of them lanes

I don't want your innocence
I don't want you to stutter
I don't want a commitment
I don't want you to suffer
I don't want your number
Baby, I want you to wonder
I want you to come up
Looking like something you wanna

[Christina Aguilera:]
Tell me, what you thinking about
When you got me waitng patiently
And usually, I don't have to wait for nobody
But there's something about you
That really got me feeling weak
And I'm trying to find the words to speak

Boy, I got my eyes on you
Tell me what you wanna do
I can picture you in my room
Until the morning
I don't even know your name
Boy, I need to know your name
I'm hoping that you feel the same
Tell me if you want it

I know you're gonna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you don't have to fight it (You don't)
Cause baby you're invited (Baby)
I know you're gonna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you don't have to fight it (You don't)
Cause baby you're invited (Baby)

[Diddy:]
You're dreams fullfilled
You're rockin with the best
- put your limits to the test
You're pulsating, your heart is beating outta your chest
You're hyperventilating, trying to catch your breath
(Don't stop)
I'm the first, I'm the next, I'm the end
I'm the boss, in your thoughts, that'll make your mind bend
Look how I approach you, look how I expose you
The - every move, now I know you
I don't wanna control you, I wanna console you
And do everything that I told you
Get high with me, come touch the sky with me
Fly with me, see life with new eyes with me
(Don't stop)
I'm the dream, I'm the one, I'm the reason you come
I'm a king, I'm a hung, I'm a beast
I'm the last thing your eyes see
The passion's inside me, it's yours
Now come try me, c'mon

[Christina Aguilera:]
Tell me, what you thinking about
When your hands is all on me
Cause I've been thinking about
All the possibilities
Ain't no other place that I really wanna be
Cause you're sweepin' me off my feet

Boy, I got my eyes on you
Tell me what you wanna do
I can picture you in my room
Until the morning
I don't even know your name
Boy, I need to know your name
I'm hoping that you feel the same
Tell me if you want it

[Hook:]
I know you're gonna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you don't have to fight it (You don't)
Cause baby you're invited (Baby)
I know you're gonna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you don't have to fight it (Baby you're invited)
Cause baby you're invited (Baby)

[Bridge: Christina Aguilera]
I got a selection of the positions of affection
With no pressure
So tell me
Tell me how you want it, tell me how you want it babe
I got a selection of the positions of affection
With no pressure
So tell me
Tell me how you want it
Tell me how you want it babe

Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it
__________________________________________________________________________



Yahhh... Oh wells. Went out wit sysweets and teru ytd(Saturday) go read either teru's or suyee's blogs to see what happened. Thanks suyee sweetie for ur really sweet entry=)

Will stop here for now... Blog later abt everything! =) Talking to sysweets on the phone now =)

Saturday, January 27, 2007

lost things and blowhairwer

aye...

bad news first -- unconfirmed but i think i've lost my favorite halter!! =((

anw, i've realised it was missing for awhile now, but didn't bother to confirm tt it wasn't in my room till just now. Haha. Which resulted in massive overturn of my cupboards and I found 2 other articles of clothing which i thought were missing - my black racer(U2) and my very-sorely-missed black flare miniskirt! They were hidden amongst my at-home-only clothes so hahaha, didn't know.

So anyways, my massive overhaul of my closets made me realise one thing. I REALLY HAVE A DAMN FREAKING LOT OF CLOTHES. Here's a short breakdown:

I have:
10 dresses
8 knee to floor length skirts
16 short skirts
8 pairs of shorts
5 pairs of jeans
5 pairs of long pants
2 pairs of capris
5 spag tops
15 halter tops
9 tank tops/racer backed tops
5 polo tees
3 shrugs/capes
5 jackets/blazers
5 caps
5 belts
12 pairs of shoes

And almost 50 tops of various styles, cuts and colors

around 13 of these clothes have never been worn (out of the house) and another 9 have only been worn once/twice

And all these do not include my at-home clothes, some of which can pass for going-out clothes.. Lol.


I need more closet space. My clothes are packed so close together tt they're all crumpled!
I need bags
I don't need accessories - don't even go there, I have at least 50 pairs of earrings, 5 hairbands, at least 30 other hair-accessories, 30 necklaces of which almost 20 i don't even wear anymore... Hahas.

Anyways, enough with the frivolous stuff and let's move on!

So I was going on and on abt Monday. Hahas. So yea, went wmall, wanted to go to Pool Factor at Bukit Timah Plaza one but they were closed so headed to wmall instead and arcaded, shopped etc. Had dinner at Pastamania and had loads of fun! =)

Tuesday was only supposed to meet suyeesweets for a short while but they were sweet enough to wait for me during my ugc112 lect (halfway through i left to accompany them for awhile then went back in again) then i went to have lunch wit CAME and the 2 of them were still waiting for me! And sugarcupcakehoneypie msged me to ask if I wanted to cut hair! So when she told me they were going to the Kimage school I was like, ok! Cheap mah haha. So we caught a cab down to Funan and went straight there (deliberated around some camera shops and toilet) then got our haircuts.. Grr. I think like, HC's turned out the best ba, not much change. Sy got half her head cut off. I mean hair. LOL. And MINE... Grr. Disaster la. Haha. I think i needa rebond my hair sooner than i thought now. Anw, then we walked to Bugis for sy to buy hat/cap to hide her hair lol. I already had mine =) Then we ended up buying this red hairband thingy each to add on to the ASSES uniform! Wahaha. Then on the way to Bugis stupid suyee sweets was being irritating and etc. Oh wait. Before we went bugis we had dinner at (guess where?) Pasta (AGAIN) at funan, during which I cancelled my tuition haha. Then stupid sugarcupcakehoneypie koped my phone and kept calling *him and leaving missed calls.. Then dunno why she got herself high on calling him *winks* and so while we were walking towards bugis she was being uberlame, saying what, we must write what song called "One Missed Call" so she started saying, then i started singing, "My friend used my phone/To make one missed call/To her lover XXX/And blamed it on me" then she was like, still got a RAP part to the song (since she claims to be the music producer of the song) and started going "Papaya watermelon, watermelon papaya, cherkang lau ts..." WTF. I just started screaming tt silly song i was singing louder and louder and she kept rapping stupidly and very off-tunely. Hahahahahahahahahs. Think we embarassed the shizz out of hc lol.

Yah then was shopping at bugis, and hc&d, hehe glad you guys are ok now =) Be happy! *huggs*

Wed... Er think I was pretty much a good girl, going for lessons and all.. Hehe. Ok ok i think actually I missed COM in the morn but managed to take the test.. Haha. Cracked lame joke in staffroom. Then UGC we had this movie quiz thing (and kenna gl-ed by Peters).. Then went straight to 2.09 where tong, wenfu, daryl and ts were.. OH! I forgot! Tong and I met in the morn! Actually she came my house again la lol. Then my maid ironed her "uniform" for her (the iron-on patches) and etc then coz we cldn't get a SINGLE cab at all so I ended up being late for COM =( So we decided tt i should skip com and we went to KAP for breakfast(took bus). Then at kap we saw daryl and 2 of his friends, then chatted etc and ate, then Daryl said he was gonna buy cards so we followed him down to coldstorage and then after tt we joined em for awhile, after which i had to go down to sch for d test n ugc (while tong ps-ed me!! All for bridge! HMPH!)

Oh and yah, we were all wearing the ASSES uniform, which made a lot of CAME ppl and UB ppl question why I looked so beach-y and like I just woke up and staggered out of the hse like tt lol.

Yah so anw, after ugc went to 2.09 to join those ppl.. Actually is to ask tong for help with MTH.. Haha. Coz i just realized there was gonna be curve-sketching and I really hated tt.. Then kns kenna diarrhoea and mense cramps.. Grr. Then bad mood swing so gave up studying and played bridge wit em hahas. Then went up to take test, finished test and went back down to join em. Hahas. The test was quite ok ba. Cannot get full marks coz i still dunno how to do the range/domain thing.. Hahas. Anw yea went down to join em.. A lot of toilet talk and card playing and THEY ALL ARE SUPER FREAKING INCONSIDERATE LA. Hello. I think ts and I need to avoid being at the same place at the same time liao. Actually, more accurately, I need to avoid it. I always kenna suan leh! WTF. Luckily i brought this big cap that i pulled over my face whenever they say us. Singing club is especially scary coz everyone can sing love songs to your face and change the lyrics to suan you like xiao. Grrr. But he's also a bit stupid. They always say him wit tt song, then he always go and sing tt song!!! Aiyoh. I not sure what the title of tt song is i think it's some lishengjie song... Like, "ni na me ai ta, wei shen me bu ba ta liu xia" etc. WTF. Then he will occasionally burst into (that) song and they'll be like, "the lyrics should be "wo na me ai ni" etc" WTF. YOU NOT PAISEH I PAISEH CAN

Aaaanw. We did heyjude again for lesson.. Not bad la, when we all dun forget our parts.. Think Standbyme was better haha. Coz for SBM the guys part is super funny, esp the ending.. The doo-doo-DOOO~~ Hahahahas.

Then after lesson we were thinking abt where to go for dinner.. Then think tong also quite sick and tired so we decided to go to the canteen to eat dinner.. Then wenfu was jio-ing everyone to go Settler's Cafe (lol see prev entry's title). He kept pronouncing it wrongly, and suyee sweets kept saying him LOLOLOL. Super funny. Then he said like, Thursday is ladies' night so got free flow of drinks for a base charge, then he mispronounced it too, which caused sy to bone-pick even more! Wahahaha super funny. Anw during dinner, they anyhow anyhow arrange the seating until i had to sit opposite somebody lor. haha. I SHY NIA. So i nv talk. =) But wenfu super funny, like, when I tried to talk (and my mouth was full) he'll be like, you eat first, you see, your noodles is asking you whether you want to eat it or not.. etc. Hahahaha aiyoh super funny. Then I was the slowest la (sorry!) coz halfway through i went to walk tong to the bus stop.. Poor dear really sick (lovesick nia) etc.. So since I'd promised Silas to take care of her in his absence, I must fulfil my duty right. hahas. Then yah after I'd decided I'd had enough (no, i didn't finish all the soup like somebody said), we left for Settler's.

Woohoo. Located in Holland V, Settler's cafe is a place for you to have dinner and fun at the same time, or at least consecutively. LOL. Great recommendation, seniors! =) I enjoyed myself like shit there la, the games were really outta this world. Wenfu and LTA were super funny wit their squeegee chairs.. We played 3 games, and luckily for me, i nv kenna forfeit. Hahas. Peiwen totally lost the first game, 3 times she didn't get the bone wahaha. I will never forget when she threw herself across the table to get one and kenna hauled by wenfu coz he pulled the bone she was grabbing onto. WAHAHA. So she ended up flying over(pulled by the hand) and landed across LTA and Wenfu.. Hahahaha. Super funny. Tt bone game is actually sth like the HEARTATTACK card game.. Only slightly more complicated and 200times more exciting lol.

Anw the second game must use brain one. Hahahaha. Super funny, some collecting points thing. I won the 2nd round!! Hahas. Ahem, somebody damn smart, lost all 3 rounds and lost quite badly somemore. Wahahaha.

Third game was CHAROODLES! Charades wit props. SUPER SUPER FUNNY. Wahahahahha. I know, most of you think the best part was when I was guessing with my team (girls agst guys)... Peiwen was acting, then the clue for tt set of words was "At the barber".. Then she used the cylindrical prop to point at her hair, making some blowing action.. So i said, "blow hair, blow, hair dryer," then she made movements like we were getting close, so I got excited la, which resulted in me saying stupid things ... Like, go see the title of this entry.. Yah. and when I said that right, IT'S NOT FUNNY ONE LOR. DUNNO WHY YOU ALL THE REACTION MUST SO BIG. Hahaha. somebody laugh until broke the chair. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Ahem. Control yourself. Ahem. Anw, yah super funny la. We play until the shop people, who were already very noisy themselves, complained tt we were too noisy. Wahahahaha. Then the shop closing le, then we left for the bus stop.. On the way, us girls kept cam-whoring so the guys had to keep stopping for us etc.. SUGARCUPCAKEHONEYPIE! I'm waiting for the pics! hahahas. Funny la.

K, think got other stuff but I won't say le la.. Share wit u all happy news only. Hahas. I'm seriously thinking of a private blog, where I can post openly my misgivings.. haha. But anw, it's late and i'm tired. Hehe.

Oh. Wait. Today. haha. Supposed to meet suyeesweets but nv, sorry! I had cramps and woke up late.. Skipped mgq too(CAME changed plans ytd).. Then went for tuitions lor.. But highlight of the day I think was talkin to my asses over the phone, discussing our plans for tml. Wah sei dun anyhow call ppl names leh. Thankew. Hahas

Alrighty am tired, and long day tml! Hahas. So see ya.

-I love my asses- =)

Friday, January 26, 2007

settuhlers, free foes and horrornuhbles

hahas. it's thursday yah. dun care tt it's 12:43am. lol

realized i forgot to blog abt Monday. So went out wit d asses and we bought our stupid "uniforms" coz we went wmall and just had lots of fun hahas. arcade, shopping, lookin for stuff =) go see sillysuyeesweets(aka sugarcupcakehoneypie)'s blog for details. so irritating nia the two asses graffiti-ed my textbooks! grr.

omg super sleepy. today was a fun day. aye it's 1:20am now. crap. haha i went off to read my PITNB! hahas.

lemme continue!

[ergh really super sleepy.. lemme update tml!] nite all!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

get sexy on him

haha ignore the title! it's a song - Blindfold by Kelis! Whee~~

Cut my hair today!! At last, a haircut tt's radically different lol. But it's quite pom4 pom3.. Hmms. Well.. You'll have to see it to decide if u like it. I think i'm quite fine with it. As long as my hair doesn't curl back too soon i'm fine

Cancelled tuition these 2 days to hang wit my asses(ytd) and suyeesweets&huiching (today)!!! Hahas. And ponned my first time this sem - MTH131 ytd. Boo. But i'm ahead of the class by about 2 weeks worth anyway, so shd be ok. Hahas.

Wanted to put up my fave playlist of the moment! Here goes:

Me and U - Cassie
Long Way to Go - Cassie
Twerk-A-Little - Bubba Sparxxx
Do It To It - Cherish
Right Now - Danity Kane
Fergalicious - Fergie
Nasty Girl - Destiny's Child
Don't Get it Twisted - Gwen Stefani
Wind It Up - Gwen Stefani
The Sweet Escape - Gwen Stefani
Sexyback - JT ft Timbaland
My Love - JT
Sexy Ladies - JT
Blindfold Me - Kelis
Handful - Kelis
Ah Shit - Kelis
What's that right there - Kelis
Snap Ya Fingers - Lil Jon
Show me the money - Petey Pabloe
Come to me - P Diddy ft Nicole (of PCD)
Tell me - P Diddy ft Xtina Aguilera
Wait a minute - PCD
For the Love - Drew Sidora & Mario
Im'ma Shine - Youngbloodz
Feelin Myself - Dolla
Till The Dawn - Drew Sidora
London Bridge - Fergie
Call On Me - Janet Jackson ft Nelly
Bossy - Kelis

Yupps haha. Clubbing songs!! Whee. And some slow ones like For The Love and Call on Me and Right now. Super niceeee~~ =))

Alrighty gotta bathe. Blog more later! Hehe

Sunday, January 21, 2007

wah wah wah!

ayeee!!

so so so so sooo super long nv blog liao!!! hahas. sorry sorry sorry

anw, quick note abt prev post: quiz answers will NOT be posted. so if you wanna know the answers you better try it before asking me. Hahas. So far the results are dismal!!! Pfft. Highest is only like, 7!?!?!?! Grrr~~ Hahas. But anws, that proves my point - nobody reeeeaaally understands me!! Sighs

alrighty, event blog!!! Hahas. I've got loads loads loads to blog abt! Thought-blog AND event blog! Hehe so let's get down to it!

Kk so after the first day of school, [crap think i've really gotta jot down my thoughts as and when i think them!!! grr]

First day of sch - did i mention tong and i were s'posed to go swimming then she overslept and failed to wake me up!?!?! which resulted in me oversleeping and arriving late for the first day of school!?!?!?! Hahas. Then lessons lor. Haha. Can't really rmb what else le.

Tues - My free-est day! went for com 225 and ugc 112. I was super on time nia - proud of myself=) after ugc there was some briefing abt the digital access course then at abt 3pm i went to join my ASSES to mug! Tong was gonna help me wit MTH131 mah. hahas. Oh and yea - my new bunch of fave peeps - my ASSES!!! Hehe. Tong(Sitong), Suyee(sweets) and Silas(tong's bf)!! Haha. See the "S"-es?? Hahahahs Love em lots lots lots leh Heh. Then they went to watch Superstar and I went home!

Wed - My busiest day!! Basically no time for much stuffs.. Have i shown y'all my Wednesday schedule? It goes like this:
9am-1030am : Com 217
1pm-230pm: Tuition wit T1
330pm-500pm: MTH 131
6pm-7pm: Tuition wit K
7pm-930pm: TUition wit S

Sian right? Grr. So yepps tt was how my Wed went..



Thurs! - One of my relatively free-er days! 11am - Com 225 (quiz) Speaking of which, gotta thank the kingbeng for trying to warn us about quiz on Wed haha. More on that later. Anw, then 1pm was UGC then 330pm was MTH for an hour. Then i went to meet my ASSES (minus Silas) and we headed off to CCA. Like super funny can. We irritated the seniors by making a lotta noise taking photos etc. SORRY LA. Then the silly asses kept making me and ts. Grr. They tried to snatch my wallet(and money) but I got my money out, then they wanted to say i have no money and ask him to pay!?!?!? WTF. Then in the end what they did was take out my FUGLY FUGLY ez-link card, pass to him and say what, I ask him pay for me. WTF. So throw face. Then we laughed over my ezlink card for a bit. Then took more photos etc. Hahas. Then after CCA the ASSES and I (oh when I'm wit em right, my name got to change to S-herlynn LOL. Funnily enough, if I change my name to start wit an S hor, then CAME will become SAME. Quite funny hahas) went to J8 to have dinner and walk walk. Silas met us at school and we went down, then ate at Pastamania! Then walk walk etc. Hahas. Damn funny la. We wanted to STALK someone! Wahahahahaha. Funny nia. Then talk non-stop. Very LOUDLY. Not me only k. Not me. I don't talk loudly de. Hahahahahahahas. Anw yah then went to Fox to do massive shopping coz of the 60% off(if u buy 5 items and above) so went wit suyeesweets. Then left the shop only when they were closing, then realized i lost my earring (the one evy bought for me leh! so sadded!!!) then went back to find, then cldn't find, then search my purchases, then HENG ARH, inside there =)) So dun worry evydarling. I still have the pair =) Love em! Then went home le hehe

Fri - Which is YTD! Hahas. Only had one hour of lessons[mgq] (followed my crazy amount of tuition) which was supposed to start at 245.. But the ASSES hadn't had enough of each other yet, so we arranged to crash suyeesweets's econs lect which was at 9am! Then we decided we wanted to eat BREAKFAST, so we arranged to meet at 645am at KAP!!! Wah xiao-ness hahas. But I was quite ON about it since it was such a novel experience. So anw, tong called my hp frm 5am till 545am and i ignored her calls all the way lOlololol. And silas was calling me too lol coz tong asked him to try too. LOLOL. And i ignored all the calls can!!! Wahahaha. So tong decided to call my hse, and my dad answered her, then he intercommed me and asked me to answer the phone, which FINALLY got me up lol. I almost went back to sleep when I realized it was like, LATE! Haha. So i hurried up and arrived there ON TIME K! I stepped out of the house at 630am and arrived at KAP at 645am. Took cab lah DUHH. Then in the end I was the FIRST ONE THERE NIA. Haha. Tong and Silas caught in jam so they were abt 20mins late, then suyee sweets had someone fighting wit her for the toilet at her hse so she kenna delayed PLUS the SUPER MASSIVE JAM haha so she arrived at like, 720am? Hahas. Anw then we ate etc.. Hahas. Then went down and had the lect. SUPER BORING NIA. Hahas so me tong and silas left during their break after 1andahalfhours (wtf UOL has super good food can) and went outside to take pics like xiao. Hehe. Then hung abt wit em till abt 1230 then went to join my CAME sweets =) Then we went for MGQ at 1245.. Decided to change our class to the Thursday one so tt the timing is better =) Then ended early so i changed my tuition classes to be earlier then i went straight down to tuition. Frm 430 change to 230pm for T, then S cldn't change timing so stayed at 7pm. So after I was done wit T i went home to bathe and eat and sleep, then went to S's place haha. Then went home and slept early. Super shagged. Walked home frm the MRT station after S's tuition haha. Been walking home a lot. Can save transport money + exercise! Hahas


Sat - TODAY! Hahas. Funfun day!! Met up wit my ASSES again, but this time instead of suyeesweets, we had the other SY - LISIYING!!! Hehehe siyingzi joined us for a day of fun! Hahas. So she met me at my house at 8am (basically woke me up lol) and then my dad gave us a lift down to ToaPayoh mrt where we met tong and silas at 9am.. Almost joined my momma for lunch but she had to queue for the bank thing so we left first (she asked us to leave first) Then we bought out tidbits and all, then set off for tong's house. When we arrived at her house, we played a round of bridge (but silas dunno how to play! Then play wit noob v irritating de LOL) So we decided to watch Jian4 Gui3 10.. Haha. Second time watching tt one for me. Super funny =) Sometimes scary ba. Tong kept grabbing me. Hahas. Silas jealous nia. We pigged out during the show la! Chips, chocs, feeding each other, greentearootbeer... Hahas. Super nia. Then we brought out the MJ table and MJ-ed!! Haha. Think we only managed to complete one actual round. Like, DongFengNanFengXiFengBeiFeng then maybe we made it to Dongfeng again and tt was it! Hahas. Coz sy beginner nia. But she really beginner's luck! Haha. Then tong went to bathe, the rest of us packed up, then we played bridge+taitee then we all took a cab down to newton mrt. Tong went for her performance, sy went to meet her bf and I walked down to my uncle's house

Time to walk from Newton MRT to my Uncle's house (which is at Kent Ridge there) is about 40mins ba. Hahas. I know. Looooooong walk. But anw, after today I've become certain that it is possible to walk EVERYWHERE in Singapore nia. Hahas. Depends on whether or not u have the time and the patience only. Hahas. Lucky my Ipod strength still not bad =) So yepps. Walked from Newton to like, Dorset area haha. I love the feeling of no stress, no pressure, having the time to walk as slowly as i like, for as long as i like. The rain was bad la, but everything else about the walk (oh and apart frm getting lost for awhile also) was great =) I'm a solitary creature! Hehe

Then after gathering at my Uncle's house, came home and had mass convo on msn wit esprimere ppl. Hee. I'm still curious as to why teru started the convo but anw.. I guess a step is a step! =)


I think i can be a bit more open about this la. Haha. It's pretty obvious liao anw. What siying said today affected me a bit la (she saw ts in sch and asked him abt me then he kinda flustered or sth etc) but after tt at cca things were a bit xiao so i think nvm. Hahas. We'll see how everything goes. Hahas. I think advice like "let nature take its course" and "leave it up to Fate" etc are redundant.. Coz tt's what I'm doing yah. I'm so passive you cld even say I'm negative hahahaha.

[But i'll concede - he's cute!! =))]


Aaanw.. Hahas. Been spending loadsa time wit my ASSES and my CAME recently =) Yayyness! Haha. Oh and KINGBENG. Hahas. Somehow I think he reads this, but he's one of the "silent reader" types. Haha. I have a lot of "silent readers" - ppl who read but dun wanna tag. Hahas. Those who just decide to msg/email/msn me are much appreciated haha. Esp reeeeenana. Always feel so touched when she reads and cheers me up or whateva. Hahas. Miss ya loads leh airpork. Really never talk to you for super super long. Anw! Back to topic! YAHH. Hahas. KB(kingbeng nia, not kaobei) has been asking the CAME out or stuff like tt often! Haha. We suspect sth mannn~~~ Anw i better not say too much here. But i'm an information provider and thing is... CAME is kinda.. i dunno.. Ann has des, Maddie has zk, then we shan't say anymore le.


Hahas. This is the life. Spending time wit my friends and all =) Happy~~ Will blog more soon, am so tired! hahas.

Special shoutout to suyeesweets - my sugarcupcakehoneypie! hahahas. Coz she was "waiting to see (her) name appear" hahaha. So HUGGLES SUYEESWEETS =))

*ciao bellas!

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

beginnings..

first day of school today!


heh. a bit not used to the whole having to pay attention to some guy thing again but hey, i'm in my motivated-to-study mode, as is typical of start of semesters.. haha.

textbooks - we're gonna save a bunch by buying photocopies! *looks disdainfully at old textbooks frm sem 1* must learn to save money for my dad heh

anyways, saw my came again =)) wheee~~ love you guys loads. And people like rah, elves, anita, ngee ann etc! =)) loves

MTH - MATHS!! WTH functions, integrations, some piecewise shit. WTF. I need a tutor.

Anws, wanted to blog ytd (Sunday) about the stuff below but net was down so here goes:
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Was just listening to Chingy's Don't Worry, ft Janet Jackson (on my way home frm gathering. heh. yang's bday - he's ADORABLE).. One of the lines goes "you the one that knew me"

Kinda makes me wonder if there's anyone who really knows me. I mean, i don't think my family knows me v well.. Neither do my v close friends.. Maybe tong ba since she's been wit me through all these years heh. Val kinda knows me quite well too.. Just not well enough to know what exactly i mean when i say sth.. And, none of you have been scolded like really badly and seriously by me before. Like, I've nv really been pissed and quarrelled wit any of you before. Apart frm tong, who's heard me screaming at my various family members over the phone, none of you know what i'm like when i'm in a rage.. None of you have seen me cry the crazy wrenching body-wracking sobs that I do when I'm really really really frustrated..

In short, you guys don't know the volatile side of me. Only tong and (more recently) val have been subject to my cold treatment. And val -- tt day was already very mild. I was still trying to be nice some more. For tong and i - our infamous quarrel of sec 1/sec 2 was quite bad lol. Super funny nia. But super bad. Like I walked past tong and someone said like "hey tt's your friend" or sth then I went "i don't know her" or sth like tt. Not like v bad la but anw. Then in J1 we quarrelled again hahas. Tt one was pretty fiery.

So anw, I was thinking, I'm gonna put up a quiz here to see who really understands me. You guys choose the answer and then email me to check your answers.. Or you could friendstermsg me the answers at http://www.friendster.com/papadum hahas. I know, cool url huh. Hahas.

Here goes:

1. The area of life that makes me cry the most/the easiest is:
A) Love
B) Family
C) Friends
D) School/Work

2. The quality I treasure most in my friends is:
A) Fun-to-be-with-ness
B) Dependability
C) Honesty
D) Generosity

3. I have a real phobia of :
A) Dogs
B) Scratching sth against sth rough
C) Anything with more than 2 legs
D) Seafood

4. The person who most influences the decisions in my life is:
A) My mother
B) My best friend
C) Myself
D) My boyfriend (assuming I have one)

5. When buying a new electronical gadget, I go for:
A) Affordability
B) Form over Function
C) Branding
D) Function over Form

6. I am most proud of my:
A) Legs
B) Ears
C) Nose
D) Hair (on the head!)

7. What quote from the ones below am I most likely to advocate?
A) Put God first - be happy at last!
B) Eat your greens!
C) If you like it, buy it!
D) Work now, play later!

8. What will make me become closer with certain friends? (assuming options are all mutually exclusive)
A) Having more fun with them
B) Spending more time with them
C) Sharing secrets with them
D) Having more things in common with them

9. Which set of aspects of myself am I confident of? (i.e. I am confident of my...)
A) Musical/Singing ability, Physical appearance, Appeal to others
B) Height, Standard of English, Appeal to others
C) Artistic ability, Physical appearance, Computer skills
D) Height, Musical/Singing ability, Standard of English

10. Which of the following eventss did I actually know of before the news was (at least) 2 weeks stale?
A) The 911 incident
B) Tsunami disaster
C) Whatever earthquake just hit some place in Asia
D) Outbreak of SARS

Yupps that's it! Send me your answers along with a method to reply you =) Hahas.

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Right that's it. Gtg sleep. Lesson early tml!! Grr

Saturday, January 13, 2007

baaaack!

hehes. have loads to blog abt so let's get right down to it! =)

I'll start frm where i last stopped! I think i haven't blogged abt new year's day and eve etc


Aye.. Can't recall what I did on NYE!! Grr. Sth wit my family which was quite fun i think. Then NYDay was spent at my Uncle's house and then his restaurant... Was good =) Watched movies, played around wit cousins.. Chatted a lot.. Kept teasing Yi Liang(cousin) about enlistment.. Kept nicking yang's toy... ETC! =) Love em lots

Speaking of lovin my family lots, just remembered tt i just had a weird dream last night, abt my granma.. Sigh. It was a really sad dream =(

Anw. Hmm what else did I do?

Well it was generally tuition tuition tuition.. Till 4thJanuaryThursday.. We had the GY Gathering!! It was great seeing everyone again! Hahas. Generally people haven't changed much, only my bunch changed the most - tong, eu.. My change was during J1 so not v recent change etc.. Hahas. Some shocking changes, some not so =) Aye.. Really miss our silly class =) Lots of noise and lots of questions.. Some brilliant person decided to do some check on who was attached and who was not - guess what, at my table I was the only one not attached nia..

Sy - yep
edna - yep
tong - yep
mich - yep
huijuan - yep
me - nope

I was like, surrounded by them nia! Coz juan and sy were beside me, sy on my left juan on my right, then edna tong and mich opp me (in tt order, meaning tong directly opp me la). SURROUNDED! Grr

Wahaha. Then during the whole dinner they (esp MICH!) kept stressing me out.. And siying also la! What, oh look how they stare into each other's eyes when they talk (coz ja met us before the dinner then he and mich were quite lovey) then what, mich's hair cannot get wet la so ja dunno did sth wit his jacket etc. Wah liao eh. Thanks arh. No need to stab me until like tt Wahaha.

Then anyhow talk talk talk then say say say until edna (who doesn't even know sneeze) say she "dun even know him also approve liao" wth! Assholes. Only want me to get attached so I don't disturb your sets of er4 ren2 shi4 jie4 right?!?! Wahahaha I know.


Anw yea gathering was fun! =) Then we went walk walk shop shop then the old bukitpanjang gang shared cab back! me sy edna vivie. Hahas. Too bad huiyu wasn't there.. And who else? Oh yah juan. Coz she got people to send her home MAH. Good lor. Big lor. Wahahaha


Anws, the Saturday after tt was kbox wit Tong Silas and Suyeesweets! =) Hehe. Was uber fun we sang sang and sang! Though tong and silas... *shakes head* idiots.. Insensitive nia! Hahas. And suyee! Dun shy shy! Act shy only nia wahahahaha. Then after kbox we walked around a bit then went to the toapayoh library (we were at toapayoh kbox) then S&S left first and suyee and i walked around a bit - had an uber uber long time chatting!! =)) Wheee~~ Must chat more k suyee sweets! Hee. We chatted till she had to leave then I went back home for family gathering =) I gave my old mp3 player to my cousin (poor thing had to use discman for so long) and we looked at pics and vids on my lappie lol.

Sunday was lector duty. Read wit my mom coz the second reader didn't turn up! hahas. so mom filled in last min. Then walked wit the gospel so super long!!! My arms were shivering like mad nia! hahas

Then Monday had 3 tuitions.. Super tiring. hahas. Then was my holiday le!

Phuket - All in all it was great =) Lots of shopping, tanning, and THAI MASSAGE! Woohoo. Full body thai massage nia - you get all your privates fondled! Wahahahaha. I'm sure that sounds great to some of you hahahahas. I bought lots of stuff! 3 pairs of shoes/slippers, one lovely skirt, one polo top, chocolates, one pair of black jeans, shower scrub, the hair "chopstick" thing, deodorant, etc!

Will tell y'all more abt it soon!! Hahas. Right now i gtg dinner. Ciao and arrivederci!

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

leaving on an airplane

lala

sorry for not blogging for soooooo long

will be back on Fri late night

flying off to Phuket (which is in THAILAND) now

at Changi Airport

plane flying off in abt 20mins


ciao everyone~ I'll miss y'all!!

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

sinking...

argh. it's the morn of 3rdjan. at least, 1.27pm. this is what i typed ytd before slacking off heh.
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hah. i've been slacking too much lately. slacking off from
a) blogging
b) writing my fic
c) going out

hahas.. i'm sorry to all the people i pang-sehed! sorry sorry sorry =( I'll make it up to y'all soon k! Right now I'm enjoying my stay-home-and-slack time! But starting tml, I'm gonna be uber uber busy.. Tml alone I'll have to see all 3 of my tuition kids

2.30pm-330pm - K
330pm-5pm - S
6pm - 730pm - T


Work work work!! I need that cash. Though daddy has been kind enough to mete out the allowance the past 3 weeks, so i've been surviving on that.. I needa exercise!!! My happy-eat-all-you-want-and-enjoy-the-festivities period is officially OVER!! No more late-night snacks, no more eating whatever i want! (well, not too much) and BRING ON THE EXERCISE!!! Hahas. I needa go and lose tt weight liao =) But at least i enjoyed myself. Haha. Oh but the freakin bloated stomach feelin ain't good. Ain't good at all! Hahas.

So bring on the swim-sessions, bball and badminton games, and I might even consider gym-ing(though i don't really think i will. static activities don't appeal to me much lol). I wanted to spend this week going to the pool (since sch will have officially re-opened and there won't be so many freakin annoying kids anymore) but i just HAD to have my period this week. BOO. And nx week I'll be going off to Phuket! Grr. (Speaking of which, did anyone else know that Phuket was in Thailand? How come I'm the only one who thinks Phuket is in Malaysia???? Crap. *grabs an atlas now*)

ah. back from a v long break (watched Material Girls and The Devil Wears Prada on dvd lol)

I've never been one to make New Year's Resolutions

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i'll update on this later yea